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Narrative of the Life of An American Slave, 1845
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The Narrative of the Life of Frederick Douglass
An American Slave, Written By Himself
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[BOSTON: PUBLISHED AT THE ANTI-SLAVERY OFFICE, NO. 25 CORNHILL,
1845]
NARRATIVE
OF THE LIFE OF
FREDERICK DOUGLASS,
AN AMERICAN SLAVE
WRITTEN BY HIMSELF
ENTERED, ACCORDING TO ACT OF CONGRESS,
IN THE YEAR 1845
BY FREDERICK DOUGLASS,
IN THE CLERK'S OFFICE OF THE DISTRICT COURT
OF MASSACHUSETTS.
PREFACE
In the month of August, 1841, I attended an antislavery convention
in Nantucket, at which it was my happiness to become acquainted
with FREDERICK DOUGLASS, the writer of the following Narrative.
He was a stranger to nearly every member of that body; but, having
recently made his escape from the southern prison-house of bondage,
and feeling his curiosity excited to ascertain the principles
and measures of the abolitionists,--of whom he had heard a somewhat
vague description while he was a slave,--he was induced to give
his attendance, on the occasion alluded to, though at that time
a resident in New Bedford. Fortunate, most fortunate occurrence!--fortunate
for the millions of his manacled brethren, yet panting for deliverance
from their awful thraldom!--fortunate for the cause of negro emancipation,
and of universal liberty!--fortunate for the land of his birth,
which he has already done so much to save and bless! --fortunate
for a large circle of friends and acquaintances, whose sympathy
and affection he has strongly secured by the many sufferings he
has endured, by his virtuous traits of character, by his ever-abiding
remembrance of those who are in bonds, as being bound with them!--fortunate
for the multitudes, in various parts of our republic, whose minds
he has enlightened on the subject of slavery, and who have been
melted to tears by his pathos, or roused to virtuous indignation
by his stirring eloquence against the enslavers of men!--fortunate
for himself, as it at once brought him into the field of public
usefulness, "gave the world assurance of a MAN," quickened
the slumbering energies of his soul, and consecrated him to the
great work of breaking the rod of the oppressor, and letting the
oppressed go free!
I shall never forget his first speech at the convention--the extraordinary
emotion it excited in my own mind--the powerful impression it
created upon a crowded auditory, completely taken by surprise--the
applause which followed from the beginning to the end of his felicitous
remarks. I think I never hated slavery so intensely as at that
moment; certainly, my perception of the enormous outrage which
is inflicted by it, on the godlike nature of its victims, was
rendered far more clear than ever. There stood one, in physical
proportion and stature commanding and exact--in intellect richly
endowed--in natural eloquence a prodigy--in soul manifestly "created
but a little lower than the angels"--yet a slave, ay, a fugitive
slave,--trembling for his safety, hardly daring to believe that
on the American soil, a single white person could be found who
would befriend him at all hazards, for the love of God and humanity!
Capable of high attainments as an intellectual and moral being--needing
nothing but a comparatively small amount of cultivation to make
him an ornament to society and a blessing to his race--by the
law of the land, by the voice of the people, by the terms of the
slave code, he was only a piece of property, a beast of burden,
a chattel personal, nevertheless!
A beloved friend from New Bedford prevailed on Mr. DOUGLASS to
address the convention: He came forward to the platform with a
hesitancy and embarrassment, necessarily the attendants of a sensitive
mind in such a novel position. After apologizing for his ignorance,
and reminding the audience that slavery was a poor school for
the human intellect and heart, he proceeded to narrate some of
the facts in his own history as a slave, and in the course of
his speech gave utterance to many noble thoughts and thrilling
reflections. As soon as he had taken his seat, filled with hope
and admiration, I rose, and declared that PATRICK HENRY, of revolutionary
fame, never made a speech more eloquent in the cause of liberty,
than the one we had just listened to from the lips of that hunted
fugitive. So I believed at that time--such is my belief now. I
reminded the audience of the peril which surrounded this selfemancipated
young man at the North,--even in Massachusetts, on the soil of
the Pilgrim Fathers, among the descendants of revolutionary sires;
and I appealed to them, whether they would ever allow him to be
carried back into slavery,--law or no law, constitution or no
constitution. The response was unanimous and in thunder-tones--"NO!"
"Will you succor and protect him as a brother-man--a resident
of the old Bay State?" "YES!" shouted the whole
mass, with an energy so startling, that the ruthless tyrants south
of Mason and Dixon's line might almost have heard the mighty burst
of feeling, and recognized it as the pledge of an invincible determination,
on the part of those who gave it, never to betray him that wanders,
but to hide the outcast, and firmly to abide the consequences.
It was at once deeply impressed upon my mind, that, if Mr. DOUGLASS
could be persuaded to consecrate his time and talents to the promotion
of the anti-slavery enterprise, a powerful impetus would be given
to it, and a stunning blow at the same time inflicted on northern
prejudice against a colored complexion. I therefore endeavored
to instil hope and courage into his mind, in order that he might
dare to engage in a vocation so anomalous and responsible for
a person in his situation; and I was seconded in this effort by
warm-hearted friends, especially by the late General Agent of
the Massachusetts Anti-Slavery Society, Mr. JOHN A. COLLINS, whose
judgment in this instance entirely coincided with my own. At first,
he could give no encouragement; with unfeigned diffidence, he
expressed his conviction that he was not adequate to the performance
of so great a task; the path marked out was wholly an untrodden
one; he was sincerely apprehensive that he should do more harm
than good. After much deliberation, however, he consented to make
a trial; and ever since that period, he has acted as a lecturing
agent, under the auspices either of the American or the Massachusetts
Anti-Slavery Society. In labors he has been most abundant; and
his success in combating prejudice, in gaining proselytes, in
agitating the public mind, has far surpassed the most sanguine
expectations that were raised at the commencement of his brilliant
career. He has borne himself with gentleness and meekness, yet
with true manliness of character. As a public speaker, he excels
in pathos, wit, comparison, imitation, strength of reasoning,
and fluency of language. There is in him that union of head and
heart, which is indispensable to an enlightenment of the heads
and a winning of the hearts of others. May his strength continue
to be equal to his day! May he continue to "grow in grace,
and in the knowledge of God," that he may be increasingly
serviceable in the cause of bleeding humanity, whether at home
or abroad!
It is certainly a very remarkable fact, that one of the most efficient
advocates of the slave population, now before the public, is a
fugitive slave, in the person of FREDERICK DOUGLASS; and that
the free colored population of the United States are as ably represented
by one of their own number, in the person of CHARLES LENOX REMOND,
whose eloquent appeals have extorted the highest applause of multitudes
on both sides of the Atlantic. Let the calumniators of the colored
race despise themselves for their baseness and illiberality of
spirit, and henceforth cease to talk of the natural inferiority
of those who require nothing but time and opportunity to attain
to the highest point of human excellence.
It may, perhaps, be fairly questioned, whether any other portion
of the population of the earth could have endured the privations,
sufferings and horrors of slavery, without having become more
degraded in the scale of humanity than the slaves of African descent.
Nothing has been left undone to cripple their intellects, darken
their minds, debase their moral nature, obliterate all traces
of their relationship to mankind; and yet how wonderfully they
have sustained the mighty load of a most frightful bondage, under
which they have been groaning for centuries! To illustrate the
effect of slavery on the white man,--to show that he has no powers
of endurance, in such a condition, superior to those of his black
brother,--DANIEL O'CONNELL, the distinguished advocate of universal
emancipation, and the mightiest champion of prostrate but not
conquered Ireland, relates the following anecdote in a speech
delivered by him in the Conciliation Hall, Dublin, before the
Loyal National Repeal Association, March 31, 1845. "No matter,"
said Mr. O'CONNELL, "under what specious term it may disguise
itself, slavery is still hideous. ~It has a natural, an inevitable
tendency to brutalize every noble faculty of man.~ An American
sailor, who was cast away on the shore of Africa, where he was
kept in slavery for three years, was, at the expiration of that
period, found to be imbruted and stultified--he had lost all reasoning
power; and having forgotten his native language, could only utter
some savage gibberish between Arabic and English, which nobody
could understand, and which even he himself found difficulty in
pronouncing. So much for the humanizing influence of THE DOMESTIC
INSTITUTION!" Admitting this to have been an extraordinary
case of mental deterioration, it proves at least that the white
slave can sink as low in the scale of humanity as the black one.
Mr. DOUGLASS has very properly chosen to write his own Narrative,
in his own style, and according to the best of his ability, rather
than to employ some one else. It is, therefore, entirely his own
production; and, considering how long and dark was the career
he had to run as a slave,--how few have been his opportunities
to improve his mind since he broke his iron fetters,--it is, in
my judgment, highly creditable to his head and heart. He who can
peruse it without a tearful eye, a heaving breast, an afflicted
spirit,-without being filled with an unutterable abhorrence of
slavery and all its abettors, and animated with a determination
to seek the immediate overthrow of that execrable system,--without
trembling for the fate of this country in the hands of a righteous
God, who is ever on the side of the oppressed, and whose arm is
not shortened that it cannot save,--must have a flinty heart,
and be qualified to act the part of a trafficker "in slaves
and the souls of men." I am confident that it is essentially
true in all its statements; that nothing has been set down in
malice, nothing exaggerated, nothing drawn from the imagination;
that it comes short of the reality, rather than overstates a single
fact in regard to SLAVERY AS IT IS. The experience of FREDERICK
DOUGLASS, as a slave, was not a peculiar one; his lot was not
especially a hard one; his case may be regarded as a very fair
specimen of the treatment of slaves in Maryland, in which State
it is conceded that they are better fed and less cruelly treated
than in Georgia, Alabama, or Louisiana. Many have suffered incomparably
more, while very few on the plantations have suffered less, than
himself. Yet how deplorable was his situation! what terrible chastisements
were inflicted upon his person! what still more shocking outrages
were perpetrated upon his mind! with all his noble powers and
sublime aspirations, how like a brute was he treated, even by
those professing to have the same mind in them that was in Christ
Jesus! to what dreadful liabilities was he continually subjected!
how destitute of friendly counsel and aid, even in his greatest
extremities! how heavy was the midnight of woe which shrouded
in blackness the last ray of hope, and filled the future with
terror and gloom! what longings after freedom took possession
of his breast, and how his misery augmented, in proportion as
he grew reflective and intelligent,--thus demonstrating that a
happy slave is an extinct man! how he thought, reasoned, felt,
under the lash of the driver, with the chains upon his limbs!
what perils he encountered in his endeavors to escape from his
horrible doom! and how signal have been his deliverance and preservation
in the midst of a nation of pitiless enemies!
This Narrative contains many affecting incidents, many passages
of great eloquence and power; but I think the most thrilling one
of them all is the description DOUGLASS gives of his feelings,
as he stood soliloquizing respecting his fate, and the chances
of his one day being a freeman, on the banks of the Chesapeake
Bay--viewing the receding vessels as they flew with their white
wings before the breeze, and apostrophizing them as animated by
the living spirit of freedom. Who can read that passage, and be
insensible to its pathos and sublimity? Compressed into it is
a whole Alexandrian library of thought, feeling, and sentiment--all
that can, all that need be urged, in the form of expostulation,
entreaty, rebuke, against that crime of crimes,--making man the
property of his fellow-man! O, how accursed is that system, which
entombs the godlike mind of man, defaces the divine image, reduces
those who by creation were crowned with glory and honor to a level
with four-footed beasts, and exalts the dealer in human flesh
above all that is called God! Why should its existence be prolonged
one hour? Is it not evil, only evil, and that continually? What
does its presence imply but the absence of all fear of God, all
regard for man, on the part of the people of the United States?
Heaven speed its eternal overthrow!
So profoundly ignorant of the nature of slavery are many persons,
that they are stubbornly incredulous whenever they read or listen
to any recital of the cruelties which are daily inflicted on its
victims. They do not deny that the slaves are held as property;
but that terrible fact seems to convey to their minds no idea
of injustice, exposure to outrage, or savage barbarity. Tell them
of cruel scourgings, of mutilations and brandings, of scenes of
pollution and blood, of the banishment of all light and knowledge,
and they affect to be greatly indignant at such enormous exaggerations,
such wholesale misstatements, such abominable libels on the character
of the southern planters! As if all these direful outrages were
not the natural results of slavery! As if it were less cruel to
reduce a human being to the condition of a thing, than to give
him a severe flagellation, or to deprive him of necessary food
and clothing! As if whips, chains, thumb-screws, paddles, bloodhounds,
overseers, drivers, patrols, were not all indispensable to keep
the slaves down, and to give protection to their ruthless oppressors!
As if, when the marriage institution is abolished, concubinage,
adultery, and incest, must not necessarily abound; when all the
rights of humanity are annihilated, any barrier remains to protect
the victim from the fury of the spoiler; when absolute power is
assumed over life and liberty, it will not be wielded with destructive
sway! Skeptics of this character abound in society. In some few
instances, their incredulity arises from a want of reflection;
but, generally, it indicates a hatred of the light, a desire to
shield slavery from the assaults of its foes, a contempt of the
colored race, whether bond or free. Such will try to discredit
the shocking tales of slaveholding cruelty which are recorded
in this truthful Narrative; but they will labor in vain. Mr. DOUGLASS
has frankly disclosed the place of his birth, the names of those
who claimed ownership in his body and soul, and the names also
of those who committed the crimes which he has alleged against
them. His statements, therefore, may easily be disproved, if they
are untrue.
In the course of his Narrative, he relates two instances of murderous
cruelty,--in one of which a planter deliberately shot a slave
belonging to a neighboring plantation, who had unintentionally
gotten within his lordly domain in quest of fish; and in the other,
an overseer blew out the brains of a slave who had fled to a stream
of water to escape a bloody scourging. Mr. DOUGLASS states that
in neither of these instances was any thing done by way of legal
arrest or judicial investigation. The Baltimore American, of March
17, 1845, relates a similar case of atrocity, perpetrated with
similar impunity--as follows:--"~Shooting a slave.~--We learn,
upon the authority of a letter from Charles county, Maryland,
received by a gentleman of this city, that a young man, named
Matthews, a nephew of General Matthews, and whose father, it is
believed, holds an office at Washington, killed one of the slaves
upon his father's farm by shooting him. The letter states that
young Matthews had been left in charge of the farm; that he gave
an order to the servant, which was disobeyed, when he proceeded
to the house, ~obtained a gun, and, returning, shot the servant.~
He immediately, the letter continues, fled to his father's residence,
where he still remains unmolested."--Let it never be forgotten,
that no slaveholder or overseer can be convicted of any outrage
perpetrated on the person of a slave, however diabolical it may
be, on the testimony of colored witnesses, whether bond or free.
By the slave code, they are adjudged to be as incompetent to testify
against a white man, as though they were indeed a part of the
brute creation. Hence, there is no legal protection in fact, whatever
there may be in form, for the slave population; and any amount
of cruelty may be inflicted on them with impunity. Is it possible
for the human mind to conceive of a more horrible state of society?
The effect of a religious profession on the conduct of southern
masters is vividly described in the following Narrative, and shown
to be any thing but salutary. In the nature of the case, it must
be in the highest degree pernicious. The testimony of Mr. DOUGLASS,
on this point, is sustained by a cloud of witnesses, whose veracity
is unimpeachable. "A slaveholder's profession of Christianity
is a palpable imposture. He is a felon of the highest grade. He
is a man-stealer. It is of no importance what you put in the other
scale."
Reader! are you with the man-stealers in sympathy and purpose,
or on the side of their down-trodden victims? If with the former,
then are you the foe of God and man. If with the latter, what
are you prepared to do and dare in their behalf? Be faithful,
be vigilant, be untiring in your efforts to break every yoke,
and let the oppressed go free. Come what may --cost what it may--inscribe
on the banner which you unfurl to the breeze, as your religious
and political motto--"NO COMPROMISE WITH SLAVERY! NO UNION
WITH SLAVEHOLDERS!"
WM. LLOYD GARRISON BOSTON, ~May~ 1, 1845.
LETTER FROM WENDELL PHILLIPS, ESQ.
BOSTON, APRIL 22, 1845.
My Dear Friend:
You remember the old fable of "The Man and the Lion,"
where the lion complained that he should not be so misrepresented
"when the lions wrote history."
I am glad the time has come when the "lions write history."
We have been left long enough to gather the character of slavery
from the involuntary evidence of the masters. One might, indeed,
rest sufficiently satisfied with what, it is evident, must be,
in general, the results of such a relation, without seeking farther
to find whether they have followed in every instance. Indeed,
those who stare at the half-peck of corn a week, and love to count
the lashes on the slave's back, are seldom the "stuff"
out of which reformers and abolitionists are to be made. I remember
that, in 1838, many were waiting for the results of the West India
experiment, before they could come into our ranks. Those "results"
have come long ago; but, alas! few of that number have come with
them, as converts. A man must be disposed to judge of emancipation
by other tests than whether it has increased the produce of sugar,--and
to hate slavery for other reasons than because it starves men
and whips women,--before he is ready to lay the first stone of
his anti-slavery life.
I was glad to learn, in your story, how early the most neglected
of God's children waken to a sense of their rights, and of the
injustice done them. Experience is a keen teacher; and long before
you had mastered your A B C, or knew where the "white sails"
of the Chesapeake were bound, you began, I see, to gauge the wretchedness
of the slave, not by his hunger and want, not by his lashes and
toil, but by the cruel and blighting death which gathers over
his soul.
In connection with this, there is one circumstance which makes
your recollections peculiarly valuable, and renders your early
insight the more remarkable. You come from that part of the country
where we are told slavery appears with its fairest features. Let
us hear, then, what it is at its best estate--gaze on its bright
side, if it has one; and then imagination may task her powers
to add dark lines to the picture, as she travels southward to
that (for the colored man) Valley of the Shadow of Death, where
the Mississippi sweeps along.
Again, we have known you long, and can put the most entire confidence
in your truth, candor, and sincerity. Every one who has heard
you speak has felt, and, I am confident, every one who reads your
book will feel, persuaded that you give them a fair specimen of
the whole truth. No one-sided portrait, --no wholesale complaints,--but
strict justice done, whenever individual kindliness has neutralized,
for a moment, the deadly system with which it was strangely allied.
You have been with us, too, some years, and can fairly compare
the twilight of rights, which your race enjoy at the North, with
that "noon of night" under which they labor south of
Mason and Dixon's line. Tell us whether, after all, the half-free
colored man of Massachusetts is worse off than the pampered slave
of the rice swamps!
In reading your life, no one can say that we have unfairly picked
out some rare specimens of cruelty. We know that the bitter drops,
which even you have drained from the cup, are no incidental aggravations,
no individual ills, but such as must mingle always and necessarily
in the lot of every slave. They are the essential ingredients,
not the occasional results, of the system.
After all, I shall read your book with trembling for you. Some
years ago, when you were beginning to tell me your real name and
birthplace, you may remember I stopped you, and preferred to remain
ignorant of all. With the exception of a vague description, so
I continued, till the other day, when you read me your memoirs.
I hardly knew, at the time, whether to thank you or not for the
sight of them, when I reflected that it was still dangerous, in
Massachusetts, for honest men to tell their names! They say the
fathers, in 1776, signed the Declaration of Independence with
the halter about their necks. You, too, publish your declaration
of freedom with danger compassing you around. In all the broad
lands which the Constitution of the United States overshadows,
there is no single spot,--however narrow or desolate,--where a
fugitive slave can plant himself and say, "I am safe."
The whole armory of Northern Law has no shield for you. I am free
to say that, in your place, I should throw the MS. into the fire.
You, perhaps, may tell your story in safety, endeared as you are
to so many warm hearts by rare gifts, and a still rarer devotion
of them to the service of others. But it will be owing only to
your labors, and the fearless efforts of those who, trampling
the laws and Constitution of the country under their feet, are
determined that they will "hide the outcast," and that
their hearths shall be, spite of the law, an asylum for the oppressed,
if, some time or other, the humblest may stand in our streets,
and bear witness in safety against the cruelties of which he has
been the victim.
Yet it is sad to think, that these very throbbing hearts which
welcome your story, and form your best safeguard in telling it,
are all beating contrary to the "statute in such case made
and provided." Go on, my dear friend, till you, and those
who, like you, have been saved, so as by fire, from the dark prisonhouse,
shall stereotype these free, illegal pulses into statutes; and
New England, cutting loose from a blood-stained Union, shall glory
in being the house of refuge for the oppressed,--till we no longer
merely "~hide~ the outcast," or make a merit of standing
idly by while he is hunted in our midst; but, consecrating anew
the soil of the Pilgrims as an asylum for the oppressed, proclaim
our WELCOME to the slave so loudly, that the tones shall reach
every hut in the Carolinas, and make the broken-hearted bondman
leap up at the thought of old Massachusetts.
God speed the day!
~Till then, and ever,~ ~Yours truly,
~ ~WENDELL PHILLIPS~
FREDERICK DOUGLASS.
Frederick Douglass was born in slavery as Frederick Augustus Washington
Bailey near Easton in Talbot County, Maryland. He was not sure
of the exact year of his birth, but he knew that it was 1817 or
1818. As a young boy he was sent to Baltimore, to be a house servant,
where he learned to read and write, with the assistance of his
master's wife. In 1838 he escaped from slavery and went to New
York City, where he married Anna Murray, a free colored woman
whom he had met in Baltimore. Soon thereafter he changed his name
to Frederick Douglass. In 1841 he addressed a convention of the
Massachusetts Anti-Slavery Society in Nantucket and so greatly
impressed the group that they immediately employed him as an agent.
He was such an impressive orator that numerous persons doubted
if he had ever been a slave, so he wrote NARRATIVE OF THE LIFE
OF FREDERICK DOUGLASS. During the Civil War he assisted in the
recruiting of colored men for the 54th and 55th Massachusetts
Regiments and consistently argued for the emancipation of slaves.
After the war he was active in securing and protecting the rights
of the freemen. In his later years, at different times, he was
secretary of the Santo Domingo Commission, marshall and recorder
of deeds of the District of Columbia, and United States Minister
to Haiti. His other autobiographical works are MY BONDAGE AND
MY FREEDOM and LIFE AND TIMES OF FREDERICK DOUGLASS, published
in 1855 and 1881 respectively. He died in 1895.
CHAPTER I
I was born in Tuckahoe, near Hillsborough, and about twelve miles
from Easton, in Talbot county, Maryland. I have no accurate knowledge
of my age, never having seen any authentic record containing it.
By far the larger part of the slaves know as little of their ages
as horses know of theirs, and it is the wish of most masters within
my knowledge to keep their slaves thus ignorant. I do not remember
to have ever met a slave who could tell of his birthday. They
seldom come nearer to it than planting-time, harvesttime, cherry-time,
spring-time, or fall-time. A want of information concerning my
own was a source of unhappiness to me even during childhood. The
white children could tell their ages. I could not tell why I ought
to be deprived of the same privilege. I was not allowed to make
any inquiries of my master concerning it. He deemed all such inquiries
on the part of a slave improper and impertinent, and evidence
of a restless spirit. The nearest estimate I can give makes me
now between twenty-seven and twentyeight years of age. I come
to this, from hearing my master say, some time during 1835, I
was about seventeen years old.
My mother was named Harriet Bailey. She was the daughter of Isaac
and Betsey Bailey, both colored, and quite dark. My mother was
of a darker complexion than either my grandmother or grandfather.
My father was a white man. He was admitted to be such by all I
ever heard speak of my parentage. The opinion was also whispered
that my master was my father; but of the correctness of this opinion,
I know nothing; the means of knowing was withheld from me. My
mother and I were separated when I was but an infant--before I
knew her as my mother. It is a common custom, in the part of Maryland
from which I ran away, to part children from their mothers at
a very early age. Frequently, before the child has reached its
twelfth month, its mother is taken from it, and hired out on some
farm a considerable distance off, and the child is placed under
the care of an old woman, too old for field labor. For what this
separation is done, I do not know, unless it be to hinder the
development of the child's affection toward its mother, and to
blunt and destroy the natural affection of the mother for the
child. This is the inevitable result.
I never saw my mother, to know her as such, more than four or
five times in my life; and each of these times was very short
in duration, and at night. She was hired by a Mr. Stewart, who
lived about twelve miles from my home. She made her journeys to
see me in the night, travelling the whole distance on foot, after
the performance of her day's work. She was a field hand, and a
whipping is the penalty of not being in the field at sunrise,
unless a slave has special permission from his or her master to
the contrary--a permission which they seldom get, and one that
gives to him that gives it the proud name of being a kind master.
I do not recollect of ever seeing my mother by the light of day.
She was with me in the night. She would lie down with me, and
get me to sleep, but long before I waked she was gone. Very little
communication ever took place between us. Death soon ended what
little we could have while she lived, and with it her hardships
and suffering. She died when I was about seven years old, on one
of my master's farms, near Lee's Mill. I was not allowed to be
present during her illness, at her death, or burial. She was gone
long before I knew any thing about it. Never having enjoyed, to
any considerable extent, her soothing presence, her tender and
watchful care, I received the tidings of her death with much the
same emotions I should have probably felt at the death of a stranger.
Called thus suddenly away, she left me without the slightest intimation
of who my father was. The whisper that my master was my father,
may or may not be true; and, true or false, it is of but little
consequence to my purpose whilst the fact remains, in all its
glaring odiousness, that slaveholders have ordained, and by law
established, that the children of slave women shall in all cases
follow the condition of their mothers; and this is done too obviously
to administer to their own lusts, and make a gratification of
their wicked desires profitable as well as pleasurable; for by
this cunning arrangement, the slaveholder, in cases not a few,
sustains to his slaves the double relation of master and father.
I know of such cases; and it is worthy of remark that such slaves
invariably suffer greater hardships, and have more to contend
with, than others. They are, in the first place, a constant offence
to their mistress. She is ever disposed to find fault with them;
they can seldom do any thing to please her; she is never better
pleased than when she sees them under the lash, especially when
she suspects her husband of showing to his mulatto children favors
which he withholds from his black slaves. The master is frequently
compelled to sell this class of his slaves, out of deference to
the feelings of his white wife; and, cruel as the deed may strike
any one to be, for a man to sell his own children to human flesh-mongers,
it is often the dictate of humanity for him to do so; for, unless
he does this, he must not only whip them himself, but must stand
by and see one white son tie up his brother, of but few shades
darker complexion than himself, and ply the gory lash to his naked
back; and if he lisp one word of disapproval, it is set down to
his parental partiality, and only makes a bad matter worse, both
for himself and the slave whom he would protect and defend.
Every year brings with it multitudes of this class of slaves.
It was doubtless in consequence of a knowledge of this fact, that
one great statesman of the south predicted the downfall of slavery
by the inevitable laws of population. Whether this prophecy is
ever fulfilled or not, it is nevertheless plain that a very different-looking
class of people are springing up at the south, and are now held
in slavery, from those originally brought to this country from
Africa; and if their increase do no other good, it will do away
the force of the argument, that God cursed Ham, and therefore
American slavery is right. If the lineal descendants of Ham are
alone to be scripturally enslaved, it is certain that slavery
at the south must soon become unscriptural; for thousands are
ushered into the world, annually, who, like myself, owe their
existence to white fathers, and those fathers most frequently
their own masters.
I have had two masters. My first master's name was Anthony. I
do not remember his first name. He was generally called Captain
Anthony--a title which, I presume, he acquired by sailing a craft
on the Chesapeake Bay. He was not considered a rich slaveholder.
He owned two or three farms, and about thirty slaves. His farms
and slaves were under the care of an overseer. The overseer's
name was Plummer. Mr. Plummer was a miserable drunkard, a profane
swearer, and a savage monster. He always went armed with a cowskin
and a heavy cudgel. I have known him to cut and slash the women's
heads so horribly, that even master would be enraged at his cruelty,
and would threaten to whip him if he did not mind himself. Master,
however, was not a humane slaveholder. It required extraordinary
barbarity on the part of an overseer to affect him. He was a cruel
man, hardened by a long life of slaveholding. He would at times
seem to take great pleasure in whipping a slave. I have often
been awakened at the dawn of day by the most heart-rending shrieks
of an own aunt of mine, whom he used to tie up to a joist, and
whip upon her naked back till she was literally covered with blood.
No words, no tears, no prayers, from his gory victim, seemed to
move his iron heart from its bloody purpose. The louder she screamed,
the harder he whipped; and where the blood ran fastest, there
he whipped longest. He would whip her to make her scream, and
whip her to make her hush; and not until overcome by fatigue,
would he cease to swing the blood-clotted cowskin. I remember
the first time I ever witnessed this horrible exhibition. I was
quite a child, but I well remember it. I never shall forget it
whilst I remember any thing. It was the first of a long series
of such outrages, of which I was doomed to be a witness and a
participant. It struck me with awful force. It was the blood-stained
gate, the entrance to the hell of slavery, through which I was
about to pass. It was a most terrible spectacle. I wish I could
commit to paper the feelings with which I beheld it.
This occurrence took place very soon after I went to live with
my old master, and under the following circumstances. Aunt Hester
went out one night,-where or for what I do not know,--and happened
to be absent when my master desired her presence. He had ordered
her not to go out evenings, and warned her that she must never
let him catch her in company with a young man, who was paying
attention to her belonging to Colonel Lloyd. The young man's name
was Ned Roberts, generally called Lloyd's Ned. Why master was
so careful of her, may be safely left to conjecture. She was a
woman of noble form, and of graceful proportions, having very
few equals, and fewer superiors, in personal appearance, among
the colored or white women of our neighborhood.
Aunt Hester had not only disobeyed his orders in going out, but
had been found in company with Lloyd's Ned; which circumstance,
I found, from what he said while whipping her, was the chief offence.
Had he been a man of pure morals himself, he might have been thought
interested in protecting the innocence of my aunt; but those who
knew him will not suspect him of any such virtue. Before he commenced
whipping Aunt Hester, he took her into the kitchen, and stripped
her from neck to waist, leaving her neck, shoulders, and back,
entirely naked. He then told her to cross her hands, calling her
at the same time a d----d b---h. After crossing her hands, he
tied them with a strong rope, and led her to a stool under a large
hook in the joist, put in for the purpose. He made her get upon
the stool, and tied her hands to the hook. She now stood fair
for his infernal purpose. Her arms were stretched up at their
full length, so that she stood upon the ends of her toes. He then
said to her, "Now, you d----d b---h, I'll learn you how to
disobey my orders!" and after rolling up his sleeves, he
commenced to lay on the heavy cowskin, and soon the warm, red
blood (amid heart-rending shrieks from her, and horrid oaths from
him) came dripping to the floor. I was so terrified and horror-stricken
at the sight, that I hid myself in a closet, and dared not venture
out till long after the bloody transaction was over. I expected
it would be my turn next. It was all new to me. I had never seen
any thing like it before. I had always lived with my grandmother
on the outskirts of the plantation, where she was put to raise
the children of the younger women. I had therefore been, until
now, out of the way of the bloody scenes that often occurred on
the plantation.
CHAPTER II
My master's family consisted of two sons, Andrew and Richard;
one daughter, Lucretia, and her husband, Captain Thomas Auld.
They lived in one house, upon the home plantation of Colonel Edward
Lloyd. My master was Colonel Lloyd's clerk and superintendent.
He was what might be called the overseer of the overseers. I spent
two years of childhood on this plantation in my old master's family.
It was here that I witnessed the bloody transaction recorded in
the first chapter; and as I received my first impressions of slavery
on this plantation, I will give some description of it, and of
slavery as it there existed. The plantation is about twelve miles
north of Easton, in Talbot county, and is situated on the border
of Miles River. The principal products raised upon it were tobacco,
corn, and wheat. These were raised in great abundance; so that,
with the products of this and the other farms belonging to him,
he was able to keep in almost constant employment a large sloop,
in carrying them to market at Baltimore. This sloop was named
Sally Lloyd, in honor of one of the colonel's daughters. My master's
son-in-law, Captain Auld, was master of the vessel; she was otherwise
manned by the colonel's own slaves. Their names were Peter, Isaac,
Rich, and Jake. These were esteemed very highly by the other slaves,
and looked upon as the privileged ones of the plantation; for
it was no small affair, in the eyes of the slaves, to be allowed
to see Baltimore.
Colonel Lloyd kept from three to four hundred slaves on his home
plantation, and owned a large number more on the neighboring farms
belonging to him. The names of the farms nearest to the home plantation
were Wye Town and New Design. "Wye Town" was under the
overseership of a man named Noah Willis. New Design was under
the overseership of a Mr. Townsend. The overseers of these, and
all the rest of the farms, numbering over twenty, received advice
and direction from the managers of the home plantation. This was
the great business place. It was the seat of government for the
whole twenty farms. All disputes among the overseers were settled
here. If a slave was convicted of any high misdemeanor, became
unmanageable, or evinced a determination to run away, he was brought
immediately here, severely whipped, put on board the sloop, carried
to Baltimore, and sold to Austin Woolfolk, or some other slave-trader,
as a warning to the slaves remaining.
Here, too, the slaves of all the other farms received their monthly
allowance of food, and their yearly clothing. The men and women
slaves received, as their monthly allowance of food, eight pounds
of pork, or its equivalent in fish, and one bushel of corn meal.
Their yearly clothing consisted of two coarse linen shirts, one
pair of linen trousers, like the shirts, one jacket, one pair
of trousers for winter, made of coarse negro cloth, one pair of
stockings, and one pair of shoes; the whole of which could not
have cost more than seven dollars. The allowance of the slave
children was given to their mothers, or the old women having the
care of them. The children unable to work in the field had neither
shoes, stockings, jackets, nor trousers, given to them; their
clothing consisted of two coarse linen shirts per year. When these
failed them, they went naked until the next allowance-day. Children
from seven to ten years old, of both sexes, almost naked, might
be seen at all seasons of the year.
There were no beds given the slaves, unless one coarse blanket
be considered such, and none but the men and women had these.
This, however, is not considered a very great privation. They
find less difficulty from the want of beds, than from the want
of time to sleep; for when their day's work in the field is done,
the most of them having their washing, mending, and cooking to
do, and having few or none of the ordinary facilities for doing
either of these, very many of their sleeping hours are consumed
in preparing for the field the coming day; and when this is done,
old and young, male and female, married and single, drop down
side by side, on one common bed,--the cold, damp floor,--each
covering himself or herself with their miserable blankets; and
here they sleep till they are summoned to the field by the driver's
horn. At the sound of this, all must rise, and be off to the field.
There must be no halting; every one must be at his or her post;
and woe betides them who hear not this morning summons to the
field; for if they are not awakened by the sense of hearing, they
are by the sense of feeling: no age nor sex finds any favor. Mr.
Severe, the overseer, used to stand by the door of the quarter,
armed with a large hickory stick and heavy cowskin, ready to whip
any one who was so unfortunate as not to hear, or, from any other
cause, was prevented from being ready to start for the field at
the sound of the horn.
Mr. Severe was rightly named: he was a cruel man. I have seen
him whip a woman, causing the blood to run half an hour at the
time; and this, too, in the midst of her crying children, pleading
for their mother's release. He seemed to take pleasure in manifesting
his fiendish barbarity. Added to his cruelty, he was a profane
swearer. It was enough to chill the blood and stiffen the hair
of an ordinary man to hear him talk. Scarce a sentence escaped
him but that was commenced or concluded by some horrid oath. The
field was the place to witness his cruelty and profanity. His
presence made it both the field of blood and of blasphemy. From
the rising till the going down of the sun, he was cursing, raving,
cutting, and slashing among the slaves of the field, in the most
frightful manner. His career was short. He died very soon after
I went to Colonel Lloyd's; and he died as he lived, uttering,
with his dying groans, bitter curses and horrid oaths. His death
was regarded by the slaves as the result of a merciful providence.
Mr. Severe's place was filled by a Mr. Hopkins. He was a very
different man. He was less cruel, less profane, and made less
noise, than Mr. Severe. His course was characterized by no extraordinary
demonstrations of cruelty. He whipped, but seemed to take no pleasure
in it. He was called by the slaves a good overseer.
The home plantation of Colonel Lloyd wore the appearance of a
country village. All the mechanical operations for all the farms
were performed here. The shoemaking and mending, the blacksmithing,
cartwrighting, coopering, weaving, and grain-grinding, were all
performed by the slaves on the home plantation. The whole place
wore a business-like aspect very unlike the neighboring farms.
The number of houses, too, conspired to give it advantage over
the neighboring farms. It was called by the slaves the ~Great
House Farm.~ Few privileges were esteemed higher, by the slaves
of the out-farms, than that of being selected to do errands at
the Great House Farm. It was associated in their minds with greatness.
A representative could not be prouder of his election to a seat
in the American Congress, than a slave on one of the out-farms
would be of his election to do errands at the Great House Farm.
They regarded it as evidence of great confidence reposed in them
by their overseers; and it was on this account, as well as a constant
desire to be out of the field from under the driver's lash, that
they esteemed it a high privilege, one worth careful living for.
He was called the smartest and most trusty fellow, who had this
honor conferred upon him the most frequently. The competitors
for this office sought as diligently to please their overseers,
as the office-seekers in the political parties seek to please
and deceive the people. The same traits of character might be
seen in Colonel Lloyd's slaves, as are seen in the slaves of the
political parties.
The slaves selected to go to the Great House Farm, for the monthly
allowance for themselves and their fellow-slaves, were peculiarly
enthusiastic. While on their way, they would make the dense old
woods, for miles around, reverberate with their wild songs, revealing
at once the highest joy and the deepest sadness. They would compose
and sing as they went along, consulting neither time nor tune.
The thought that came up, came out--if not in the word, in the
sound;--and as frequently in the one as in the other. They would
sometimes sing the most pathetic sentiment in the most rapturous
tone, and the most rapturous sentiment in the most pathetic tone.
Into all of their songs they would manage to weave something of
the Great House Farm. Especially would they do this, when leaving
home. They would then sing most exultingly the following words:--
"I am going away to the Great House Farm!
O, yea! O, yea! O!" This they would sing, as a chorus, to
words which to many would seem unmeaning jargon, but which, nevertheless,
were full of meaning to themselves. I have sometimes thought that
the mere hearing of those songs would do more to impress some
minds with the horrible character of slavery, than the reading
of whole volumes of philosophy on the subject could do.
I did not, when a slave, understand the deep meaning of those
rude and apparently incoherent songs. I was myself within the
circle; so that I neither saw nor heard as those without might
see and hear. They told a tale of woe which was then altogether
beyond my feeble comprehension; they were tones loud, long, and
deep; they breathed the prayer and complaint of souls boiling
over with the bitterest anguish. Every tone was a testimony against
slavery, and a prayer to God for deliverance from chains. The
hearing of those wild notes always depressed my spirit, and filled
me with ineffable sadness. I have frequently found myself in tears
while hearing them. The mere recurrence to those songs, even now,
afflicts me; and while I am writing these lines, an expression
of feeling has already found its way down my cheek. To those songs
I trace my first glimmering conception of the dehumanizing character
of slavery. I can never get rid of that conception. Those songs
still follow me, to deepen my hatred of slavery, and quicken my
sympathies for my brethren in bonds. If any one wishes to be impressed
with the soul-killing effects of slavery, let him go to Colonel
Lloyd's plantation, and, on allowance-day, place himself in the
deep pine woods, and there let him, in silence, analyze the sounds
that shall pass through the chambers of his soul,--and if he is
not thus impressed, it will only be because "there is no
flesh in his obdurate heart."
I have often been utterly astonished, since I came to the north,
to find persons who could speak of the singing, among slaves,
as evidence of their contentment and happiness. It is impossible
to conceive of a greater mistake. Slaves sing most when they are
most unhappy. The songs of the slave represent the sorrows of
his heart; and he is relieved by them, only as an aching heart
is relieved by its tears. At least, such is my experience. I have
often sung to drown my sorrow, but seldom to express my happiness.
Crying for joy, and singing for joy, were alike uncommon to me
while in the jaws of slavery. The singing of a man cast away upon
a desolate island might be as appropriately considered as evidence
of contentment and happiness, as the singing of a slave; the songs
of the one and of the other are prompted by the same emotion.
CHAPTER III
Colonel Lloyd kept a large and finely cultivated garden, which
afforded almost constant employment for four men, besides the
chief gardener, (Mr. M'Durmond.) This garden was probably the
greatest attraction of the place. During the summer months, people
came from far and near--from Baltimore, Easton, and Annapolis--to
see it. It abounded in fruits of almost every description, from
the hardy apple of the north to the delicate orange of the south.
This garden was not the least source of trouble on the plantation.
Its excellent fruit was quite a temptation to the hungry swarms
of boys, as well as the older slaves, belonging to the colonel,
few of whom had the virtue or the vice to resist it. Scarcely
a day passed, during the summer, but that some slave had to take
the lash for stealing fruit. The colonel had to resort to all
kinds of stratagems to keep his slaves out of the garden. The
last and most successful one was that of tarring his fence all
around; after which, if a slave was caught with any tar upon his
person, it was deemed sufficient proof that he had either been
into the garden, or had tried to get in. In either case, he was
severely whipped by the chief gardener. This plan worked well;
the slaves became as fearful of tar as of the lash. They seemed
to realize the impossibility of touching TAR without being defiled.
The colonel also kept a splendid riding equipage. His stable and
carriage-house presented the appearance of some of our large city
livery establishments. His horses were of the finest form and
noblest blood. His carriage-house contained three splendid coaches,
three or four gigs, besides dearborns and barouches of the most
fashionable style.
This establishment was under the care of two slaves--old Barney
and young Barney--father and son. To attend to this establishment
was their sole work. But it was by no means an easy employment;
for in nothing was Colonel Lloyd more particular than in the management
of his horses. The slightest inattention to these was unpardonable,
and was visited upon those, under whose care they were placed,
with the severest punishment; no excuse could shield them, if
the colonel only suspected any want of attention to his horses--a
supposition which he frequently indulged, and one which, of course,
made the office of old and young Barney a very trying one. They
never knew when they were safe from punishment. They were frequently
whipped when least deserving, and escaped whipping when most deserving
it. Every thing depended upon the looks of the horses, and the
state of Colonel Lloyd's own mind when his horses were brought
to him for use. If a horse did not move fast enough, or hold his
head high enough, it was owing to some fault of his keepers. It
was painful to stand near the stable-door, and hear the various
complaints against the keepers when a horse was taken out for
use. "This horse has not had proper attention. He has not
been sufficiently rubbed and curried, or he has not been properly
fed; his food was too wet or too dry; he got it too soon or too
late; he was too hot or too cold; he had too much hay, and not
enough of grain; or he had too much grain, and not enough of hay;
instead of old Barney's attending to the horse, he had very improperly
left it to his son." To all these complaints, no matter how
unjust, the slave must answer never a word. Colonel Lloyd could
not brook any contradiction from a slave. When he spoke, a slave
must stand, listen, and tremble; and such was literally the case.
I have seen Colonel Lloyd make old Barney, a man between fifty
and sixty years of age, uncover his bald head, kneel down upon
the cold, damp ground, and receive upon his naked and toil-worn
shoulders more than thirty lashes at the time. Colonel Lloyd had
three sons--Edward, Murray, and Daniel,--and three sons-in-law,
Mr. Winder, Mr. Nicholson, and Mr. Lowndes. All of these lived
at the Great House Farm, and enjoyed the luxury of whipping the
servants when they pleased, from old Barney down to William Wilkes,
the coach-driver. I have seen Winder make one of the house-servants
stand off from him a suitable distance to be touched with the
end of his whip, and at every stroke raise great ridges upon his
back.
To describe the wealth of Colonel Lloyd would be almost equal
to describing the riches of Job. He kept from ten to fifteen house-servants.
He was said to own a thousand slaves, and I think this estimate
quite within the truth. Colonel Lloyd owned so many that he did
not know them when he saw them; nor did all the slaves of the
out-farms know him. It is reported of him, that, while riding
along the road one day, he met a colored man, and addressed him
in the usual manner of speaking to colored people on the public
highways of the south: "Well, boy, whom do you belong to?"
"To Colonel Lloyd," replied the slave. "Well, does
the colonel treat you well?" "No, sir," was the
ready reply. "What, does he work you too hard?" "Yes,
sir." "Well, don't he give you enough to eat?"
"Yes, sir, he gives me enough, such as it is."
The colonel, after ascertaining where the slave belonged, rode
on; the man also went on about his business, not dreaming that
he had been conversing with his master. He thought, said, and
heard nothing more of the matter, until two or three weeks afterwards.
The poor man was then informed by his overseer that, for having
found fault with his master, he was now to be sold to a Georgia
trader. He was immediately chained and handcuffed; and thus, without
a moment's warning, he was snatched away, and forever sundered,
from his family and friends, by a hand more unrelenting than death.
This is the penalty of telling the truth, of telling the simple
truth, in answer to a series of plain questions.
It is partly in consequence of such facts, that slaves, when inquired
of as to their condition and the character of their masters, almost
universally say they are contented, and that their masters are
kind. The slaveholders have been known to send in spies among
their slaves, to ascertain their views and feelings in regard
to their condition. The frequency of this has had the effect to
establish among the slaves the maxim, that a still tongue makes
a wise head. They suppress the truth rather than take the consequences
of telling it, and in so doing prove themselves a part of the
human family. If they have any thing to say of their masters,
it is generally in their masters' favor, especially when speaking
to an untried man. I have been frequently asked, when a slave,
if I had a kind master, and do not remember ever to have given
a negative answer; nor did I, in pursuing this course, consider
myself as uttering what was absolutely false; for I always measured
the kindness of my master by the standard of kindness set up among
slaveholders around us. Moreover, slaves are like other people,
and imbibe prejudices quite common to others. They think their
own better than that of others. Many, under the influence of this
prejudice, think their own masters are better than the masters
of other slaves; and this, too, in some cases, when the very reverse
is true. Indeed, it is not uncommon for slaves even to fall out
and quarrel among themselves about the relative goodness of their
masters, each contending for the superior goodness of his own
over that of the others. At the very same time, they mutually
execrate their masters when viewed separately. It was so on our
plantation. When Colonel Lloyd's slaves met the slaves of Jacob
Jepson, they seldom parted without a quarrel about their masters;
Colonel Lloyd's slaves contending that he was the richest, and
Mr. Jepson's slaves that he was the smartest, and most of a man.
Colonel Lloyd's slaves would boast his ability to buy and sell
Jacob Jepson. Mr. Jepson's slaves would boast his ability to whip
Colonel Lloyd. These quarrels would almost always end in a fight
between the parties, and those that whipped were supposed to have
gained the point at issue. They seemed to think that the greatness
of their masters was transferable to themselves. It was considered
as being bad enough to be a slave; but to be a poor man's slave
was deemed a disgrace indeed!
CHAPTER IV
Mr. Hopkins remained but a short time in the office of overseer.
Why his career was so short, I do not know, but suppose he lacked
the necessary severity to suit Colonel Lloyd. Mr. Hopkins was
succeeded by Mr. Austin Gore, a man possessing, in an eminent
degree, all those traits of character indispensable to what is
called a first-rate overseer. Mr. Gore had served Colonel Lloyd,
in the capacity of overseer, upon one of the out-farms, and had
shown himself worthy of the high station of overseer upon the
home or Great House Farm.
Mr. Gore was proud, ambitious, and persevering. He was artful,
cruel, and obdurate. He was just the man for such a place, and
it was just the place for such a man. It afforded scope for the
full exercise of all his powers, and he seemed to be perfectly
at home in it. He was one of those who could torture the slightest
look, word, or gesture, on the part of the slave, into impudence,
and would treat it accordingly. There must be no answering back
to him; no explanation was allowed a slave, showing himself to
have been wrongfully accused. Mr. Gore acted fully up to the maxim
laid down by slaveholders,-"It is better that a dozen slaves
should suffer under the lash, than that the overseer should be
convicted, in the presence of the slaves, of having been at fault."
No matter how innocent a slave might be--it availed him nothing,
when accused by Mr. Gore of any misdemeanor. To be accused was
to be convicted, and to be convicted was to be punished; the one
always following the other with immutable certainty. To escape
punishment was to escape accusation; and few slaves had the fortune
to do either, under the overseership of Mr. Gore. He was just
proud enough to demand the most debasing homage of the slave,
and quite servile enough to crouch, himself, at the feet of the
master. He was ambitious enough to be contented with nothing short
of the highest rank of overseers, and persevering enough to reach
the height of his ambition. He was cruel enough to inflict the
severest punishment, artful enough to descend to the lowest trickery,
and obdurate enough to be insensible to the voice of a reproving
conscience. He was, of all the overseers, the most dreaded by
the slaves. His presence was painful; his eye flashed confusion;
and seldom was his sharp, shrill voice heard, without producing
horror and trembling in their ranks.
Mr. Gore was a grave man, and, though a young man, he indulged
in no jokes, said no funny words, seldom smiled. His words were
in perfect keeping with his looks, and his looks were in perfect
keeping with his words. Overseers will sometimes indulge in a
witty word, even with the slaves; not so with Mr. Gore. He spoke
but to command, and commanded but to be obeyed; he dealt sparingly
with his words, and bountifully with his whip, never using the
former where the latter would answer as well. When he whipped,
he seemed to do so from a sense of duty, and feared no consequences.
He did nothing reluctantly, no matter how disagreeable; always
at his post, never inconsistent. He never promised but to fulfil.
He was, in a word, a man of the most inflexible firmness and stone-like
coolness.
His savage barbarity was equalled only by the consummate coolness
with which he committed the grossest and most savage deeds upon
the slaves under his charge. Mr. Gore once undertook to whip one
of Colonel Lloyd's slaves, by the name of Demby. He had given
Demby but few stripes, when, to get rid of the scourging, he ran
and plunged himself into a creek, and stood there at the depth
of his shoulders, refusing to come out. Mr. Gore told him that
he would give him three calls, and that, if he did not come out
at the third call, he would shoot him. The first call was given.
Demby made no response, but stood his ground. The second and third
calls were given with the same result. Mr. Gore then, without
consultation or deliberation with any one, not even giving Demby
an additional call, raised his musket to his face, taking deadly
aim at his standing victim, and in an instant poor Demby was no
more. His mangled body sank out of sight, and blood and brains
marked the water where he had stood.
A thrill of horror flashed through every soul upon the plantation,
excepting Mr. Gore. He alone seemed cool and collected. He was
asked by Colonel Lloyd and my old master, why he resorted to this
extraordinary expedient. His reply was, (as well as I can remember,)
that Demby had become unmanageable. He was setting a dangerous
example to the other slaves,--one which, if suffered to pass without
some such demonstration on his part, would finally lead to the
total subversion of all rule and order upon the plantation. He
argued that if one slave refused to be corrected, and escaped
with his life, the other slaves would soon copy the example; the
result of which would be, the freedom of the slaves, and the enslavement
of the whites. Mr. Gore's defence was satisfactory. He was continued
in his station as overseer upon the home plantation. His fame
as an overseer went abroad. His horrid crime was not even submitted
to judicial investigation. It was committed in the presence of
slaves, and they of course could neither institute a suit, nor
testify against him; and thus the guilty perpetrator of one of
the bloodiest and most foul murders goes unwhipped of justice,
and uncensured by the community in which he lives. Mr. Gore lived
in St. Michael's, Talbot county, Maryland, when I left there;
and if he is still alive, he very probably lives there now; and
if so, he is now, as he was then, as highly esteemed and as much
respected as though his guilty soul had not been stained with
his brother's blood.
I speak advisedly when I say this,--that killing a slave, or any
colored person, in Talbot county, Maryland, is not treated as
a crime, either by the courts or the community. Mr. Thomas Lanman,
of St. Michael's, killed two slaves, one of whom he killed with
a hatchet, by knocking his brains out. He used to boast of the
commission of the awful and bloody deed. I have heard him do so
laughingly, saying, among other things, that he was the only benefactor
of his country in the company, and that when others would do as
much as he had done, we should be relieved of "the d----d
niggers."
The wife of Mr. Giles Hicks, living but a short distance from
where I used to live, murdered my wife's cousin, a young girl
between fifteen and sixteen years of age, mangling her person
in the most horrible manner, breaking her nose and breastbone
with a stick, so that the poor girl expired in a few hours afterward.
She was immediately buried, but had not been in her untimely grave
but a few hours before she was taken up and examined by the coroner,
who decided that she had come to her death by severe beating.
The offence for which this girl was thus murdered was this:--She
had been set that night to mind Mrs. Hicks's baby, and during
the night she fell asleep, and the baby cried. She, having lost
her rest for several nights previous, did not hear the crying.
They were both in the room with Mrs. Hicks. Mrs. Hicks, finding
the girl slow to move, jumped from her bed, seized an oak stick
of wood by the fireplace, and with it broke the girl's nose and
breastbone, and thus ended her life. I will not say that this
most horrid murder produced no sensation in the community. It
did produce sensation, but not enough to bring the murderess to
punishment. There was a warrant issued for her arrest, but it
was never served. Thus she escaped not only punishment, but even
the pain of being arraigned before a court for her horrid crime.
Whilst I am detailing bloody deeds which took place during my
stay on Colonel Lloyd's plantation, I will briefly narrate another,
which occurred about the same time as the murder of Demby by Mr.
Gore.
Colonel Lloyd's slaves were in the habit of spending a part of
their nights and Sundays in fishing for oysters, and in this way
made up the deficiency of their scanty allowance. An old man belonging
to Colonel Lloyd, while thus engaged, happened to get beyond the
limits of Colonel Lloyd's, and on the premises of Mr. Beal Bondly.
At this trespass, Mr. Bondly took offence, and with his musket
came down to the shore, and blew its deadly contents into the
poor old man.
Mr. Bondly came over to see Colonel Lloyd the next day, whether
to pay him for his property, or to justify himself in what he
had done, I know not. At any rate, this whole fiendish transaction
was soon hushed up. There was very little said about it at all,
and nothing done. It was a common saying, even among little white
boys, that it was worth a halfcent to kill a "nigger,"
and a half-cent to bury one.
CHAPTER V
As to my own treatment while I lived on Colonel Lloyd's plantation,
it was very similar to that of the other slave children. I was
not old enough to work in the field, and there being little else
than field work to do, I had a great deal of leisure time. The
most I had to do was to drive up the cows at evening, keep the
fowls out of the garden, keep the front yard clean, and run of
errands for my old master's daughter, Mrs. Lucretia Auld. The
most of my leisure time I spent in helping Master Daniel Lloyd
in finding his birds, after he had shot them. My connection with
Master Daniel was of some advantage to me. He became quite attached
to me, and was a sort of protector of me. He would not allow the
older boys to impose upon me, and would divide his cakes with
me.
I was seldom whipped by my old master, and suffered little from
any thing else than hunger and cold. I suffered much from hunger,
but much more from cold. In hottest summer and coldest winter,
I was kept almost naked--no shoes, no stockings, no jacket, no
trousers, nothing on but a coarse tow linen shirt, reaching only
to my knees. I had no bed. I must have perished with cold, but
that, the coldest nights, I used to steal a bag which was used
for carrying corn to the mill. I would crawl into this bag, and
there sleep on the cold, damp, clay floor, with my head in and
feet out. My feet have been so cracked with the frost, that the
pen with which I am writing might be laid in the gashes.
We were not regularly allowanced. Our food was coarse corn meal
boiled. This was called MUSH. It was put into a large wooden tray
or trough, and set down upon the ground. The children were then
called, like so many pigs, and like so many pigs they would come
and devour the mush; some with oystershells, others with pieces
of shingle, some with naked hands, and none with spoons. He that
ate fastest got most; he that was strongest secured the best place;
and few left the trough satisfied.
I was probably between seven and eight years old when I left Colonel
Lloyd's plantation. I left it with joy. I shall never forget the
ecstasy with which I received the intelligence that my old master
(Anthony) had determined to let me go to Baltimore, to live with
Mr. Hugh Auld, brother to my old master's son-in-law, Captain
Thomas Auld. I received this information about three days before
my departure. They were three of the happiest days I ever enjoyed.
I spent the most part of all these three days in the creek, washing
off the plantation scurf, and preparing myself for my departure.
The pride of appearance which this would indicate was not my own.
I spent the time in washing, not so much because I wished to,
but because Mrs. Lucretia had told me I must get all the dead
skin off my feet and knees before I could go to Baltimore; for
the people in Baltimore were very cleanly, and would laugh at
me if I looked dirty. Besides, she was going to give me a pair
of trousers, which I should not put on unless I got all the dirt
off me. The thought of owning a pair of trousers was great indeed!
It was almost a sufficient motive, not only to make me take off
what would be called by pigdrovers the mange, but the skin itself.
I went at it in good earnest, working for the first time with
the hope of reward.
The ties that ordinarily bind children to their homes were all
suspended in my case. I found no severe trial in my departure.
My home was charmless; it was not home to me; on parting from
it, I could not feel that I was leaving any thing which I could
have enjoyed by staying. My mother was dead, my grandmother lived
far off, so that I seldom saw her. I had two sisters and one brother,
that lived in the same house with me; but the early separation
of us from our mother had well nigh blotted the fact of our relationship
from our memories. I looked for home elsewhere, and was confident
of finding none which I should relish less than the one which
I was leaving. If, however, I found in my new home hardship, hunger,
whipping, and nakedness, I had the consolation that I should not
have escaped any one of them by staying. Having already had more
than a taste of them in the house of my old master, and having
endured them there, I very naturally inferred my ability to endure
them elsewhere, and especially at Baltimore; for I had something
of the feeling about Baltimore that is expressed in the proverb,
that "being hanged in England is preferable to dying a natural
death in Ireland." I had the strongest desire to see Baltimore.
Cousin Tom, though not fluent in speech, had inspired me with
that desire by his eloquent description of the place. I could
never point out any thing at the Great House, no matter how beautiful
or powerful, but that he had seen something at Baltimore far exceeding,
both in beauty and strength, the object which I pointed out to
him. Even the Great House itself, with all its pictures, was far
inferior to many buildings in Baltimore. So strong was my desire,
that I thought a gratification of it would fully compensate for
whatever loss of comforts I should sustain by the exchange. I
left without a regret, and with the highest hopes of future happiness.
We sailed out of Miles River for Baltimore on a Saturday morning.
I remember only the day of the week, for at that time I had no
knowledge of the days of the month, nor the months of the year.
On setting sail, I walked aft, and gave to Colonel Lloyd's plantation
what I hoped would be the last look. I then placed myself in the
bows of the sloop, and there spent the remainder of the day in
looking ahead, interesting myself in what was in the distance
rather than in things near by or behind.
In the afternoon of that day, we reached Annapolis, the capital
of the State. We stopped but a few moments, so that I had no time
to go on shore. It was the first large town that I had ever seen,
and though it would look small compared with some of our New England
factory villages, I thought it a wonderful place for its size--more
imposing even than the Great House Farm!
We arrived at Baltimore early on Sunday morning, landing at Smith's
Wharf, not far from Bowley's Wharf. We had on board the sloop
a large flock of sheep; and after aiding in driving them to the
slaughterhouse of Mr. Curtis on Louden Slater's Hill, I was conducted
by Rich, one of the hands belonging on board of the sloop, to
my new home in Alliciana Street, near Mr. Gardner's ship-yard,
on Fells Point.
Mr. and Mrs. Auld were both at home, and met me at the door with
their little son Thomas, to take care of whom I had been given.
And here I saw what I had never seen before; it was a white face
beaming with the most kindly emotions; it was the face of my new
mistress, Sophia Auld. I wish I could describe the rapture that
flashed through my soul as I beheld it. It was a new and strange
sight to me, brightening up my pathway with the light of happiness.
Little Thomas was told, there was his Freddy, --and I was told
to take care of little Thomas; and thus I entered upon the duties
of my new home with the most cheering prospect ahead.
I look upon my departure from Colonel Lloyd's plantation as one
of the most interesting events of my life. It is possible, and
even quite probable, that but for the mere circumstance of being
removed from that plantation to Baltimore, I should have to-day,
instead of being here seated by my own table, in the enjoyment
of freedom and the happiness of home, writing this Narrative,
been confined in the galling chains of slavery. Going to live
at Baltimore laid the foundation, and opened the gateway, to all
my subsequent prosperity. I have ever regarded it as the first
plain manifestation of that kind providence which has ever since
attended me, and marked my life with so many favors. I regarded
the selection of myself as being somewhat remarkable. There were
a number of slave children that might have been sent from the
plantation to Baltimore. There were those younger, those older,
and those of the same age. I was chosen from among them all, and
was the first, last, and only choice.
I may be deemed superstitious, and even egotistical, in regarding
this event as a special interposition of divine Providence in
my favor. But I should be false to the earliest sentiments of
my soul, if I suppressed the opinion. I prefer to be true to myself,
even at the hazard of incurring the ridicule of others, rather
than to be false, and incur my own abhorrence. From my earliest
recollection, I date the entertainment of a deep conviction that
slavery would not always be able to hold me within its foul embrace;
and in the darkest hours of my career in slavery, this living
word of faith and spirit of hope departed not from me, but remained
like ministering angels to cheer me through the gloom. This good
spirit was from God, and to him I offer thanksgiving and praise.
CHAPTER VI
My new mistress proved to be all she appeared when I first met
her at the door,--a woman of the kindest heart and finest feelings.
She had never had a slave under her control previously to myself,
and prior to her marriage she had been dependent upon her own
industry for a living. She was by trade a weaver; and by constant
application to her business, she had been in a good degree preserved
from the blighting and dehumanizing effects of slavery. I was
utterly astonished at her goodness. I scarcely knew how to behave
towards her. She was entirely unlike any other white woman I had
ever seen. I could not approach her as I was accustomed to approach
other white ladies. My early instruction was all out of place.
The crouching servility, usually so acceptable a quality in a
slave, did not answer when manifested toward her. Her favor was
not gained by it; she seemed to be disturbed by it. She did not
deem it impudent or unmannerly for a slave to look her in the
face. The meanest slave was put fully at ease in her presence,
and none left without feeling better for having seen her. Her
face was made of heavenly smiles, and her voice of tranquil music.
But, alas! this kind heart had but a short time to remain such.
The fatal poison of irresponsible power was already in her hands,
and soon commenced its infernal work. That cheerful eye, under
the influence of slavery, soon became red with rage; that voice,
made all of sweet accord, changed to one of harsh and horrid discord;
and that angelic face gave place to that of a demon.
Very soon after I went to live with Mr. and Mrs. Auld, she very
kindly commenced to teach me the A, B, C. After I had learned
this, she assisted me in learning to spell words of three or four
letters. Just at this point of my progress, Mr. Auld found out
what was going on, and at once forbade Mrs. Auld to instruct me
further, telling her, among other things, that it was unlawful,
as well as unsafe, to teach a slave to read. To use his own words,
further, he said, "If you give a nigger an inch, he will
take an ell. A nigger should know nothing but to obey his master--to
do as he is told to do. Learning would ~spoil~ the best nigger
in the world. Now," said he, "if you teach that nigger
(speaking of myself) how to read, there would be no keeping him.
It would forever unfit him to be a slave. He would at once become
unmanageable, and of no value to his master. As to himself, it
could do him no good, but a great deal of harm. It would make
him discontented and unhappy." These words sank deep into
my heart, stirred up sentiments within that lay slumbering, and
called into existence an entirely new train of thought. It was
a new and special revelation, explaining dark and mysterious things,
with which my youthful understanding had struggled, but struggled
in vain. I now understood what had been to me a most perplexing
difficulty--to wit, the white man's power to enslave the black
man. It was a grand achievement, and I prized it highly. From
that moment, I understood the pathway from slavery to freedom.
It was just what I wanted, and I got it at a time when I the least
expected it. Whilst I was saddened by the thought of losing the
aid of my kind mistress, I was gladdened by the invaluable instruction
which, by the merest accident, I had gained from my master. Though
conscious of the difficulty of learning without a teacher, I set
out with high hope, and a fixed purpose, at whatever cost of trouble,
to learn how to read. The very decided manner with which he spoke,
and strove to impress his wife with the evil consequences of giving
me instruction, served to convince me that he was deeply sensible
of the truths he was uttering. It gave me the best assurance that
I might rely with the utmost confidence on the results which,
he said, would flow from teaching me to read. What he most dreaded,
that I most desired. What he most loved, that I most hated. That
which to him was a great evil, to be carefully shunned, was to
me a great good, to be diligently sought; and the argument which
he so warmly urged, against my learning to read, only served to
inspire me with a desire and determination to learn. In learning
to read, I owe almost as much to the bitter opposition of my master,
as to the kindly aid of my mistress. I acknowledge the benefit
of both.
I had resided but a short time in Baltimore before I observed
a marked difference, in the treatment of slaves, from that which
I had witnessed in the country. A city slave is almost a freeman,
compared with a slave on the plantation. He is much better fed
and clothed, and enjoys privileges altogether unknown to the slave
on the plantation. There is a vestige of decency, a sense of shame,
that does much to curb and check those outbreaks of atrocious
cruelty so commonly enacted upon the plantation. He is a desperate
slaveholder, who will shock the humanity of his non-slaveholding
neighbors with the cries of his lacerated slave. Few are willing
to incur the odium attaching to the reputation of being a cruel
master; and above all things, they would not be known as not giving
a slave enough to eat. Every city slaveholder is anxious to have
it known of him, that he feeds his slaves well; and it is due
to them to say, that most of them do give their slaves enough
to eat. There are, however, some painful exceptions to this rule.
Directly opposite to us, on Philpot Street, lived Mr. Thomas Hamilton.
He owned two slaves. Their names were Henrietta and Mary. Henrietta
was about twenty-two years of age, Mary was about fourteen; and
of all the mangled and emaciated creatures I ever looked upon,
these two were the most so. His heart must be harder than stone,
that could look upon these unmoved. The head, neck, and shoulders
of Mary were literally cut to pieces. I have frequently felt her
head, and found it nearly covered with festering sores, caused
by the lash of her cruel mistress. I do not know that her master
ever whipped her, but I have been an eye-witness to the cruelty
of Mrs. Hamilton. I used to be in Mr. Hamilton's house nearly
every day. Mrs. Hamilton used to sit in a large chair in the middle
of the room, with a heavy cowskin always by her side, and scarce
an hour passed during the day but was marked by the blood of one
of these slaves. The girls seldom passed her without her saying,
"Move faster, you ~black gip!~" at the same time giving
them a blow with the cowskin over the head or shoulders, often
drawing the blood. She would then say, "Take that, you ~black
gip!~" continuing, "If you don't move faster, I'll move
you!" Added to the cruel lashings to which these slaves were
subjected, they were kept nearly half-starved. They seldom knew
what it was to eat a full meal. I have seen Mary contending with
the pigs for the offal thrown into the street. So much was Mary
kicked and cut to pieces, that she was oftener called "~pecked~"
than by her name.
CHAPTER VII
I lived in Master Hugh's family about seven years. During this
time, I succeeded in learning to read and write. In accomplishing
this, I was compelled to resort to various stratagems. I had no
regular teacher. My mistress, who had kindly commenced to instruct
me, had, in compliance with the advice and direction of her husband,
not only ceased to instruct, but had set her face against my being
instructed by any one else. It is due, however, to my mistress
to say of her, that she did not adopt this course of treatment
immediately. She at first lacked the depravity indispensable to
shutting me up in mental darkness. It was at least necessary for
her to have some training in the exercise of irresponsible power,
to make her equal to the task of treating me as though I were
a brute.
My mistress was, as I have said, a kind and tenderhearted woman;
and in the simplicity of her soul she commenced, when I first
went to live with her, to treat me as she supposed one human being
ought to treat another. In entering upon the duties of a slaveholder,
she did not seem to perceive that I sustained to her the relation
of a mere chattel, and that for her to treat me as a human being
was not only wrong, but dangerously so. Slavery proved as injurious
to her as it did to me. When I went there, she was a pious, warm,
and tender-hearted woman. There was no sorrow or suffering for
which she had not a tear. She had bread for the hungry, clothes
for the naked, and comfort for every mourner that came within
her reach. Slavery soon proved its ability to divest her of these
heavenly qualities. Under its influence, the tender heart became
stone, and the lamblike disposition gave way to one of tiger-like
fierceness. The first step in her downward course was in her ceasing
to instruct me. She now commenced to practise her husband's precepts.
She finally became even more violent in her opposition than her
husband himself. She was not satisfied with simply doing as well
as he had commanded; she seemed anxious to do better. Nothing
seemed to make her more angry than to see me with a newspaper.
She seemed to think that here lay the danger. I have had her rush
at me with a face made all up of fury, and snatch from me a newspaper,
in a manner that fully revealed her apprehension. She was an apt
woman; and a little experience soon demonstrated, to her satisfaction,
that education and slavery were incompatible with each other.
From this time I was most narrowly watched. If I was in a separate
room any considerable length of time, I was sure to be suspected
of having a book, and was at once called to give an account of
myself. All this, however, was too late. The first step had been
taken. Mistress, in teaching me the alphabet, had given me the
~inch,~ and no precaution could prevent me from taking the ~ell.~
The plan which I adopted, and the one by which I was most successful,
was that of making friends of all the little white boys whom I
met in the street. As many of these as I could, I converted into
teachers. With their kindly aid, obtained at different times and
in different places, I finally succeeded in learning to read.
When I was sent of errands, I always took my book with me, and
by going one part of my errand quickly, I found time to get a
lesson before my return. I used also to carry bread with me, enough
of which was always in the house, and to which I was always welcome;
for I was much better off in this regard than many of the poor
white children in our neighborhood. This bread I used to bestow
upon the hungry little urchins, who, in return, would give me
that more valuable bread of knowledge. I am strongly tempted to
give the names of two or three of those little boys, as a testimonial
of the gratitude and affection I bear them; but prudence forbids;--not
that it would injure me, but it might embarrass them; for it is
almost an unpardonable offence to teach slaves to read in this
Christian country. It is enough to say of the dear little fellows,
that they lived on Philpot Street, very near Durgin and Bailey's
ship-yard. I used to talk this matter of slavery over with them.
I would sometimes say to them, I wished I could be as free as
they would be when they got to be men. "You will be free
as soon as you are twenty-one, ~but I am a slave for life!~ Have
not I as good a right to be free as you have?" These words
used to trouble them; they would express for me the liveliest
sympathy, and console me with the hope that something would occur
by which I might be free.
I was now about twelve years old, and the thought of being ~a
slave for life~ began to bear heavily upon my heart. Just about
this time, I got hold of a book entitled "The Columbian Orator."
Every opportunity I got, I used to read this book. Among much
of other interesting matter, I found in it a dialogue between
a master and his slave. The slave was represented as having run
away from his master three times. The dialogue represented the
conversation which took place between them, when the slave was
retaken the third time. In this dialogue, the whole argument in
behalf of slavery was brought forward by the master, all of which
was disposed of by the slave. The slave was made to say some very
smart as well as impressive things in reply to his master-things
which had the desired though unexpected effect; for the conversation
resulted in the voluntary emancipation of the slave on the part
of the master.
In the same book, I met with one of Sheridan's mighty speeches
on and in behalf of Catholic emancipation. These were choice documents
to me. I read them over and over again with unabated interest.
They gave tongue to interesting thoughts of my own soul, which
had frequently flashed through my mind, and died away for want
of utterance. The moral which I gained from the dialogue was the
power of truth over the conscience of even a slaveholder. What
I got from Sheridan was a bold denunciation of slavery, and a
powerful vindication of human rights. The reading of these documents
enabled me to utter my thoughts, and to meet the arguments brought
forward to sustain slavery; but while they relieved me of one
difficulty, they brought on another even more painful than the
one of which I was relieved. The more I read, the more I was led
to abhor and detest my enslavers. I could regard them in no other
light than a band of successful robbers, who had left their homes,
and gone to Africa, and stolen us from our homes, and in a strange
land reduced us to slavery. I loathed them as being the meanest
as well as the most wicked of men. As I read and contemplated
the subject, behold! that very discontentment which Master Hugh
had predicted would follow my learning to read had already come,
to torment and sting my soul to unutterable anguish. As I writhed
under it, I would at times feel that learning to read had been
a curse rather than a blessing. It had given me a view of my wretched
condition, without the remedy. It opened my eyes to the horrible
pit, but to no ladder upon which to get out. In moments of agony,
I envied my fellow-slaves for their stupidity. I have often wished
myself a beast. I preferred the condition of the meanest reptile
to my own. Any thing, no matter what, to get rid of thinking!
It was this everlasting thinking of my condition that tormented
me. There was no getting rid of it. It was pressed upon me by
every object within sight or hearing, animate or inanimate. The
silver trump of freedom had roused my soul to eternal wakefulness.
Freedom now appeared, to disappear no more forever. It was heard
in every sound, and seen in every thing. It was ever present to
torment me with a sense of my wretched condition. I saw nothing
without seeing it, I heard nothing without hearing it, and felt
nothing without feeling it. It looked from every star, it smiled
in every calm, breathed in every wind, and moved in every storm.
I often found myself regretting my own existence, and wishing
myself dead; and but for the hope of being free, I have no doubt
but that I should have killed myself, or done something for which
I should have been killed. While in this state of mind, I was
eager to hear any one speak of slavery. I was a ready listener.
Every little while, I could hear something about the abolitionists.
It was some time before I found what the word meant. It was always
used in such connections as to make it an interesting word to
me. If a slave ran away and succeeded in getting clear, or if
a slave killed his master, set fire to a barn, or did any thing
very wrong in the mind of a slaveholder, it was spoken of as the
fruit of ~abolition.~ Hearing the word in this connection very
often, I set about learning what it meant. The dictionary afforded
me little or no help. I found it was "the act of abolishing;"
but then I did not know what was to be abolished. Here I was perplexed.
I did not dare to ask any one about its meaning, for I was satisfied
that it was something they wanted me to know very little about.
After a patient waiting, I got one of our city papers, containing
an account of the number of petitions from the north, praying
for the abolition of slavery in the District of Columbia, and
of the slave trade between the States. From this time I understood
the words ~abolition~ and ~abolitionist,~ and always drew near
when that word was spoken, expecting to hear something of importance
to myself and fellow-slaves. The light broke in upon me by degrees.
I went one day down on the wharf of Mr. Waters; and seeing two
Irishmen unloading a scow of stone, I went, unasked, and helped
them. When we had finished, one of them came to me and asked me
if I were a slave. I told him I was. He asked, "Are ye a
slave for life?" I told him that I was. The good Irishman
seemed to be deeply affected by the statement. He said to the
other that it was a pity so fine a little fellow as myself should
be a slave for life. He said it was a shame to hold me. They both
advised me to run away to the north; that I should find friends
there, and that I should be free. I pretended not to be interested
in what they said, and treated them as if I did not understand
them; for I feared they might be treacherous. White men have been
known to encourage slaves to escape, and then, to get the reward,
catch them and return them to their masters. I was afraid that
these seemingly good men might use me so; but I nevertheless remembered
their advice, and from that time I resolved to run away. I looked
forward to a time at which it would be safe for me to escape.
I was too young to think of doing so immediately; besides, I wished
to learn how to write, as I might have occasion to write my own
pass. I consoled myself with the hope that I should one day find
a good chance. Meanwhile, I would learn to write.
The idea as to how I might learn to write was suggested to me
by being in Durgin and Bailey's ship-yard, and frequently seeing
the ship carpenters, after hewing, and getting a piece of timber
ready for use, write on the timber the name of that part of the
ship for which it was intended. When a piece of timber was intended
for the larboard side, it would be marked thus--"L."
When a piece was for the starboard side, it would be marked thus--"S."
A piece for the larboard side forward, would be marked thus--"L.
F." When a piece was for starboard side forward, it would
be marked thus--"S. F." For larboard aft, it would be
marked thus--"L. A." For starboard aft, it would be
marked thus--"S. A." I soon learned the names of these
letters, and for what they were intended when placed upon a piece
of timber in the ship-yard. I immediately commenced copying them,
and in a short time was able to make the four letters named. After
that, when I met with any boy who I knew could write, I would
tell him I could write as well as he. The next word would be,
"I don't believe you. Let me see you try it." I would
then make the letters which I had been so fortunate as to learn,
and ask him to beat that. In this way I got a good many lessons
in writing, which it is quite possible I should never have gotten
in any other way. During this time, my copy-book was the board
fence, brick wall, and pavement; my pen and ink was a lump of
chalk. With these, I learned mainly how to write. I then commenced
and continued copying the Italics in Webster's Spelling Book,
until I could make them all without looking on the book. By this
time, my little Master Thomas had gone to school, and learned
how to write, and had written over a number of copy-books. These
had been brought home, and shown to some of our near neighbors,
and then laid aside. My mistress used to go to class meeting at
the Wilk Street meetinghouse every Monday afternoon, and leave
me to take care of the house. When left thus, I used to spend
the time in writing in the spaces left in Master Thomas's copy-book,
copying what he had written. I continued to do this until I could
write a hand very similar to that of Master Thomas. Thus, after
a long, tedious effort for years, I finally succeeded in learning
how to write.
CHAPTER VIII
In a very short time after I went to live at Baltimore, my old
master's youngest son Richard died; and in about three years and
six months after his death, my old master, Captain Anthony, died,
leavonly his son, Andrew, and daughter, Lucretia, to share his
estate. He died while on a visit to see his daughter at Hillsborough.
Cut off thus unexpectedly, he left no will as to the disposal
of his property. It was therefore necessary to have a valuation
of the property, that it might be equally divided between Mrs.
Lucretia and Master Andrew. I was immediately sent for, to be
valued with the other property. Here again my feelings rose up
in detestation of slavery. I had now a new conception of my degraded
condition. Prior to this, I had become, if not insensible to my
lot, at least partly so. I left Baltimore with a young heart overborne
with sadness, and a soul full of apprehension. I took passage
with Captain Rowe, in the schooner Wild Cat, and, after a sail
of about twenty-four hours, I found myself near the place of my
birth. I had now been absent from it almost, if not quite, five
years. I, however, remembered the place very well. I was only
about five years old when I left it, to go and live with my old
master on Colonel Lloyd's plantation; so that I was now between
ten and eleven years old.
We were all ranked together at the valuation. Men and women, old
and young, married and single, were ranked with horses, sheep,
and swine. There were horses and men, cattle and women, pigs and
children, all holding the same rank in the scale of being, and
were all subjected to the same narrow examination. Silvery-headed
age and sprightly youth, maids and matrons, had to undergo the
same indelicate inspection. At this moment, I saw more clearly
than ever the brutalizing effects of slavery upon both slave and
slaveholder.
After the valuation, then came the division. I have no language
to express the high excitement and deep anxiety which were felt
among us poor slaves during this time. Our fate for life was now
to be decided. we had no more voice in that decision than the
brutes among whom we were ranked. A single word from the white
men was enough--against all our wishes, prayers, and entreaties--to
sunder forever the dearest friends, dearest kindred, and strongest
ties known to human beings. In addition to the pain of separation,
there was the horrid dread of falling into the hands of Master
Andrew. He was known to us all as being a most cruel wretch,--a
common drunkard, who had, by his reckless mismanagement and profligate
dissipation, already wasted a large portion of his father's property.
We all felt that we might as well be sold at once to the Georgia
traders, as to pass into his hands; for we knew that that would
be our inevitable condition,--a condition held by us all in the
utmost horror and dread.
I suffered more anxiety than most of my fellowslaves. I had known
what it was to be kindly treated; they had known nothing of the
kind. They had seen little or nothing of the world. They were
in very deed men and women of sorrow, and acquainted with grief.
Their backs had been made familiar with the bloody lash, so that
they had become callous; mine was yet tender; for while at Baltimore
I got few whippings, and few slaves could boast of a kinder master
and mistress than myself; and the thought of passing out of their
hands into those of Master Andrew-a man who, but a few days before,
to give me a sample of his bloody disposition, took my little
brother by the throat, threw him on the ground, and with the heel
of his boot stamped upon his head till the blood gushed from his
nose and ears--was well calculated to make me anxious as to my
fate. After he had committed this savage outrage upon my brother,
he turned to me, and said that was the way he meant to serve me
one of these days,--meaning, I suppose, when I came into his possession.
Thanks to a kind Providence, I fell to the portion of Mrs. Lucretia,
and was sent immediately back to Baltimore, to live again in the
family of Master Hugh. Their joy at my return equalled their sorrow
at my departure. It was a glad day to me. I had escaped a worse
than lion's jaws. I was absent from Baltimore, for the purpose
of valuation and division, just about one month, and it seemed
to have been six.
Very soon after my return to Baltimore, my mistress, Lucretia,
died, leaving her husband and one child, Amanda; and in a very
short time after her death, Master Andrew died. Now all the property
of my old master, slaves included, was in the hands of strangers,--strangers
who had had nothing to do with accumulating it. Not a slave was
left free. All remained slaves, from the youngest to the oldest.
If any one thing in my experience, more than another, served to
deepen my conviction of the infernal character of slavery, and
to fill me with unutterable loathing of slaveholders, it was their
base ingratitude to my poor old grandmother. She had served my
old master faithfully from youth to old age. She had been the
source of all his wealth; she had peopled his plantation with
slaves; she had become a great grandmother in his service. She
had rocked him in infancy, attended him in childhood, served him
through life, and at his death wiped from his icy brow the cold
death-sweat, and closed his eyes forever. She was nevertheless
left a slave--a slave for life--a slave in the hands of strangers;
and in their hands she saw her children, her grandchildren, and
her great-grandchildren, divided, like so many sheep, without
being gratified with the small privilege of a single word, as
to their or her own destiny. And, to cap the climax of their base
ingratitude and fiendish barbarity, my grandmother, who was now
very old, having outlived my old master and all his children,
having seen the beginning and end of all of them, and her present
owners finding she was of but little value, her frame already
racked with the pains of old age, and complete helplessness fast
stealing over her once active limbs, they took her to the woods,
built her a little hut, put up a little mud-chimney, and then
made her welcome to the privilege of supporting herself there
in perfect loneliness; thus virtually turning her out to die!
If my poor old grandmother now lives, she lives to suffer in utter
loneliness; she lives to remember and mourn over the loss of children,
the loss of grandchildren, and the loss of greatgrandchildren.
They are, in the language of the slave's poet, Whittier,--
"Gone, gone, sold and gone
To the rice swamp dank and lone,
Where the slave-whip ceaseless swings,
Where the noisome insect stings,
Where the fever-demon strews
Poison with the falling dews,
Where the sickly sunbeams glare
Through the hot and misty air:--
Gone, gone, sold and gone
To the rice swamp dank and lone,
From Virginia hills and waters--
Woe is me, my stolen daughters!"
The hearth is desolate. The children, the unconscious children,
who once sang and danced in her presence, are gone. She gropes
her way, in the darkness of age, for a drink of water. Instead
of the voices of her children, she hears by day the moans of the
dove, and by night the screams of the hideous owl. All is gloom.
The grave is at the door. And now, when weighed down by the pains
and aches of old age, when the head inclines to the feet, when
the beginning and ending of human existence meet, and helpless
infancy and painful old age combine together--at this time, this
most needful time, the time for the exercise of that tenderness
and affection which children only can exercise towards a declining
parent--my poor old grandmother, the devoted mother of twelve
children, is left all alone, in yonder little hut, before a few
dim embers. She stands-she sits--she staggers--she falls--she
groans--she dies --and there are none of her children or grandchildren
present, to wipe from her wrinkled brow the cold sweat of death,
or to place beneath the sod her fallen remains. Will not a righteous
God visit for these things?
In about two years after the death of Mrs. Lucretia, Master Thomas
married his second wife. Her name was Rowena Hamilton. She was
the eldest daughter of Mr. William Hamilton. Master now lived
in St. Michael's. Not long after his marriage, a misunderstanding
took place between himself and Master Hugh; and as a means of
punishing his brother, he took me from him to live with himself
at St. Michael's. Here I underwent another most painful separation.
It, however, was not so severe as the one I dreaded at the division
of property; for, during this interval, a great change had taken
place in Master Hugh and his once kind and affectionate wife.
The influence of brandy upon him, and of slavery upon her, had
effected a disastrous change in the characters of both; so that,
as far as they were concerned, I thought I had little to lose
by the change. But it was not to them that I was attached. It
was to those little Baltimore boys that I felt the strongest attachment.
I had received many good lessons from them, and was still receiving
them, and the thought of leaving them was painful indeed. I was
leaving, too, without the hope of ever being allowed to return.
Master Thomas had said he would never let me return again. The
barrier betwixt himself and brother he considered impassable.
I then had to regret that I did not at least make the attempt
to carry out my resolution to run away; for the chances of success
are tenfold greater from the city than from the country.
I sailed from Baltimore for St. Michael's in the sloop Amanda,
Captain Edward Dodson. On my passage, I paid particular attention
to the direction which the steamboats took to go to Philadelphia.
I found, instead of going down, on reaching North Point they went
up the bay, in a north-easterly direction. I deemed this knowledge
of the utmost importance. My determination to run away was again
revived. I resolved to wait only so long as the offering of a
favorable opportunity. When that came, I was determined to be
off.
CHAPTER IX
I have now reached a period of my life when I can give dates.
I left Baltimore, and went to live with Master Thomas Auld, at
St. Michael's, in March, 1832. It was now more than seven years
since I lived with him in the family of my old master, on Colonel
Lloyd's plantation. We of course were now almost entire strangers
to each other. He was to me a new master, and I to him a new slave.
I was ignorant of his temper and disposition; he was equally so
of mine. A very short time, however, brought us into full acquaintance
with each other. I was made acquainted with his wife not less
than with himself. They were well matched, being equally mean
and cruel. I was now, for the first time during a space of more
than seven years, made to feel the painful gnawings of hunger--a
something which I had not experienced before since I left Colonel
Lloyd's plantation. It went hard enough with me then, when I could
look back to no period at which I had enjoyed a sufficiency. It
was tenfold harder after living in Master Hugh's family, where
I had always had enough to eat, and of that which was good. I
have said Master Thomas was a mean man. He was so. Not to give
a slave enough to eat, is regarded as the most aggravated development
of meanness even among slaveholders. The rule is, no matter how
coarse the food, only let there be enough of it. This is the theory;
and in the part of Maryland from which I came, it is the general
practice,--though there are many exceptions. Master Thomas gave
us enough of neither coarse nor fine food. There were four slaves
of us in the kitchen--my sister Eliza, my aunt Priscilla, Henny,
and myself; and we were allowed less than a half of a bushel of
corn-meal per week, and very little else, either in the shape
of meat or vegetables. It was not enough for us to subsist upon.
We were therefore reduced to the wretched necessity of living
at the expense of our neighbors. This we did by begging and stealing,
whichever came handy in the time of need, the one being considered
as legitimate as the other. A great many times have we poor creatures
been nearly perishing with hunger, when food in abundance lay
mouldering in the safe and smoke-house, and our pious mistress
was aware of the fact; and yet that mistress and her husband would
kneel every morning, and pray that God would bless them in basket
and store!
Bad as all slaveholders are, we seldom meet one destitute of every
element of character commanding respect. My master was one of
this rare sort. I do not know of one single noble act ever performed
by him. The leading trait in his character was meanness; and if
there were any other element in his nature, it was made subject
to this. He was mean; and, like most other mean men, he lacked
the ability to conceal his meanness. Captain Auld was not born
a slaveholder. He had been a poor man, master only of a Bay craft.
He came into possession of all his slaves by marriage; and of
all men, adopted slaveholders are the worst. He was cruel, but
cowardly. He commanded without firmness. In the enforcement of
his rules, he was at times rigid, and at times lax. At times,
he spoke to his slaves with the firmness of Napoleon and the fury
of a demon; at other times, he might well be mistaken for an inquirer
who had lost his way. He did nothing of himself. He might have
passed for a lion, but for his ears. In all things noble which
he attempted, his own meanness shone most conspicuous. His airs,
words, and actions, were the airs, words, and actions of born
slaveholders, and, being assumed, were awkward enough. He was
not even a good imitator. He possessed all the disposition to
deceive, but wanted the power. Having no resources within himself,
he was compelled to be the copyist of many, and being such, he
was forever the victim of inconsistency; and of consequence he
was an object of contempt, and was held as such even by his slaves.
The luxury of having slaves of his own to wait upon him was something
new and unprepared for. He was a slaveholder without the ability
to hold slaves. He found himself incapable of managing his slaves
either by force, fear, or fraud. We seldom called him "master;"
we generally called him "Captain Auld," and were hardly
disposed to title him at all. I doubt not that our conduct had
much to do with making him appear awkward, and of consequence
fretful. Our want of reverence for him must have perplexed him
greatly. He wished to have us call him master, but lacked the
firmness necessary to command us to do so. His wife used to insist
upon our calling him so, but to no purpose. In August, 1832, my
master attended a Methodist camp-meeting held in the Bay-side,
Talbot county, and there experienced religion. I indulged a faint
hope that his conversion would lead him to emancipate his slaves,
and that, if he did not do this, it would, at any rate, make him
more kind and humane. I was disappointed in both these respects.
It neither made him to be humane to his slaves, nor to emancipate
them. If it had any effect on his character, it made him more
cruel and hateful in all his ways; for I believe him to have been
a much worse man after his conversion than before. Prior to his
conversion, he relied upon his own depravity to shield and sustain
him in his savage barbarity; but after his conversion, he found
religious sanction and support for his slaveholding cruelty. He
made the greatest pretensions to piety. His house was the house
of prayer. He prayed morning, noon, and night. He very soon distinguished
himself among his brethren, and was soon made a class-leader and
exhorter. His activity in revivals was great, and he proved himself
an instrument in the hands of the church in converting many souls.
His house was the preachers' home. They used to take great pleasure
in coming there to put up; for while he starved us, he stuffed
them. We have had three or four preachers there at a time. The
names of those who used to come most frequently while I lived
there, were Mr. Storks, Mr. Ewery, Mr. Humphry, and Mr. Hickey.
I have also seen Mr. George Cookman at our house. We slaves loved
Mr. Cookman. We believed him to be a good man. We thought him
instrumental in getting Mr. Samuel Harrison, a very rich slaveholder,
to emancipate his slaves; and by some means got the impression
that he was laboring to effect the emancipation of all the slaves.
When he was at our house, we were sure to be called in to prayers.
When the others were there, we were sometimes called in and sometimes
not. Mr. Cookman took more notice of us than either of the other
ministers. He could not come among us without betraying his sympathy
for us, and, stupid as we were, we had the sagacity to see it.
While I lived with my master in St. Michael's, there was a white
young man, a Mr. Wilson, who proposed to keep a Sabbath school
for the instruction of such slaves as might be disposed to learn
to read the New Testament. We met but three times, when Mr. West
and Mr. Fairbanks, both class-leaders, with many others, came
upon us with sticks and other missiles, drove us off, and forbade
us to meet again. Thus ended our little Sabbath school in the
pious town of St. Michael's.
I have said my master found religious sanction for his cruelty.
As an example, I will state one of many facts going to prove the
charge. I have seen him tie up a lame young woman, and whip her
with a heavy cowskin upon her naked shoulders, causing the warm
red blood to drip; and, in justification of the bloody deed, he
would quote this passage of Scripture--"He that knoweth his
master's will, and doeth it not, shall be beaten with many stripes."
Master would keep this lacerated young woman tied up in this horrid
situation four or five hours at a time. I have known him to tie
her up early in the morning, and whip her before breakfast; leave
her, go to his store, return at dinner, and whip her again, cutting
her in the places already made raw with his cruel lash. The secret
of master's cruelty toward "Henny" is found in the fact
of her being almost helpless. When quite a child, she fell into
the fire, and burned herself horribly. Her hands were so burnt
that she never got the use of them. She could do very little but
bear heavy burdens. She was to master a bill of expense; and as
he was a mean man, she was a constant offence to him. He seemed
desirous of getting the poor girl out of existence. He gave her
away once to his sister; but, being a poor gift, she was not disposed
to keep her. Finally, my benevolent master, to use his own words,
"set her adrift to take care of herself." Here was a
recently-converted man, holding on upon the mother, and at the
same time turning out her helpless child, to starve and die! Master
Thomas was one of the many pious slaveholders who hold slaves
for the very charitable purpose of taking care of them.
My master and myself had quite a number of differences. He found
me unsuitable to his purpose. My city life, he said, had had a
very pernicious effect upon me. It had almost ruined me for every
good purpose, and fitted me for every thing which was bad. One
of my greatest faults was that of letting his horse run away,
and go down to his father-inlaw's farm, which was about five miles
from St. Michael's. I would then have to go after it. My reason
for this kind of carelessness, or carefulness, was, that I could
always get something to eat when I went there. Master William
Hamilton, my master's father-in-law, always gave his slaves enough
to eat. I never left there hungry, no matter how great the need
of my speedy return. Master Thomas at length said he would stand
it no longer. I had lived with him nine months, during which time
he had given me a number of severe whippings, all to no good purpose.
He resolved to put me out, as he said, to be broken; and, for
this purpose, he let me for one year to a man named Edward Covey.
Mr. Covey was a poor man, a farm-renter. He rented the place upon
which he lived, as also the hands with which he tilled it. Mr.
Covey had acquired a very high reputation for breaking young slaves,
and this reputation was of immense value to him. It enabled him
to get his farm tilled with much less expense to himself than
he could have had it done without such a reputation. Some slaveholders
thought it not much loss to allow Mr. Covey to have their slaves
one year, for the sake of the training to which they were subjected,
without any other compensation. He could hire young help with
great ease, in consequence of this reputation. Added to the natural
good qualities of Mr. Covey, he was a professor of religion--a
pious soul--a member and a class-leader in the Methodist church.
All of this added weight to his reputation as a "nigger-breaker."
I was aware of all the facts, having been made acquainted with
them by a young man who had lived there. I nevertheless made the
change gladly; for I was sure of getting enough to eat, which
is not the smallest consideration to a hungry man.
CHAPTER X
I had left Master Thomas's house, and went to live with Mr. Covey,
on the 1st of January, 1833. I was now, for the first time in
my life, a field hand. In my new employment, I found myself even
more awkward than a country boy appeared to be in a large city.
I had been at my new home but one week before Mr. Covey gave me
a very severe whipping, cutting my back, causing the blood to
run, and raising ridges on my flesh as large as my little finger.
The details of this affair are as follows: Mr. Covey sent me,
very early in the morning of one of our coldest days in the month
of January, to the woods, to get a load of wood. He gave me a
team of unbroken oxen. He told me which was the in-hand ox, and
which the off-hand one. He then tied the end of a large rope around
the horns of the in-hand ox, and gave me the other end of it,
and told me, if the oxen started to run, that I must hold on upon
the rope. I had never driven oxen before, and of course I was
very awkward. I, however, succeeded in getting to the edge of
the woods with little difficulty; but I had got a very few rods
into the woods, when the oxen took fright, and started full tilt,
carrying the cart against trees, and over stumps, in the most
frightful manner. I expected every moment that my brains would
be dashed out against the trees. After running thus for a considerable
distance, they finally upset the cart, dashing it with great force
against a tree, and threw themselves into a dense thicket. How
I escaped death, I do not know. There I was, entirely alone, in
a thick wood, in a place new to me. My cart was upset and shattered,
my oxen were entangled among the young trees, and there was none
to help me. After a long spell of effort, I succeeded in getting
my cart righted, my oxen disentangled, and again yoked to the
cart. I now proceeded with my team to the place where I had, the
day before, been chopping wood, and loaded my cart pretty heavily,
thinking in this way to tame my oxen. I then proceeded on my way
home. I had now consumed one half of the day. I got out of the
woods safely, and now felt out of danger. I stopped my oxen to
open the woods gate; and just as I did so, before I could get
hold of my ox-rope, the oxen again started, rushed through the
gate, catching it between the wheel and the body of the cart,
tearing it to pieces, and coming within a few inches of crushing
me against the gate-post. Thus twice, in one short day, I escaped
death by the merest chance. On my return, I told Mr. Covey what
had happened, and how it happened. He ordered me to return to
the woods again immediately. I did so, and he followed on after
me. Just as I got into the woods, he came up and told me to stop
my cart, and that he would teach me how to trifle away my time,
and break gates. He then went to a large gum-tree, and with his
axe cut three large switches, and, after trimming them up neatly
with his pocketknife, he ordered me to take off my clothes. I
made him no answer, but stood with my clothes on. He repeated
his order. I still made him no answer, nor did I move to strip
myself. Upon this he rushed at me with the fierceness of a tiger,
tore off my clothes, and lashed me till he had worn out his switches,
cutting me so savagely as to leave the marks visible for a long
time after. This whipping was the first of a number just like
it, and for similar offences.
I lived with Mr. Covey one year. During the first six months,
of that year, scarce a week passed without his whipping me. I
was seldom free from a sore back. My awkwardness was almost always
his excuse for whipping me. We were worked fully up to the point
of endurance. Long before day we were up, our horses fed, and
by the first approach of day we were off to the field with our
hoes and ploughing teams. Mr. Covey gave us enough to eat, but
scarce time to eat it. We were often less than five minutes taking
our meals. We were often in the field from the first approach
of day till its last lingering ray had left us; and at saving-fodder
time, midnight often caught us in the field binding blades.
Covey would be out with us. The way he used to stand it, was this.
He would spend the most of his afternoons in bed. He would then
come out fresh in the evening, ready to urge us on with his words,
example, and frequently with the whip. Mr. Covey was one of the
few slaveholders who could and did work with his hands. He was
a hard-working man. He knew by himself just what a man or a boy
could do. There was no deceiving him. His work went on in his
absence almost as well as in his presence; and he had the faculty
of making us feel that he was ever present with us. This he did
by surprising us. He seldom approached the spot where we were
at work openly, if he could do it secretly. He always aimed at
taking us by surprise. Such was his cunning, that we used to call
him, among ourselves, "the snake." When we were at work
in the cornfield, he would sometimes crawl on his hands and knees
to avoid detection, and all at once he would rise nearly in our
midst, and scream out, "Ha, ha! Come, come! Dash on, dash
on!" This being his mode of attack, it was never safe to
stop a single minute. His comings were like a thief in the night.
He appeared to us as being ever at hand. He was under every tree,
behind every stump, in every bush, and at every window, on the
plantation. He would sometimes mount his horse, as if bound to
St. Michael's, a distance of seven miles, and in half an hour
afterwards you would see him coiled up in the corner of the wood-fence,
watching every motion of the slaves. He would, for this purpose,
leave his horse tied up in the woods. Again, he would sometimes
walk up to us, and give us orders as though he was upon the point
of starting on a long journey, turn his back upon us, and make
as though he was going to the house to get ready; and, before
he would get half way thither, he would turn short and crawl into
a fence-corner, or behind some tree, and there watch us till the
going down of the sun.
Mr. Covey's FORTE consisted in his power to deceive. His life
was devoted to planning and perpetrating the grossest deceptions.
Every thing he possessed in the shape of learning or religion,
he made conform to his disposition to deceive. He seemed to think
himself equal to deceiving the Almighty. He would make a short
prayer in the morning, and a long prayer at night; and, strange
as it may seem, few men would at times appear more devotional
than he. The exercises of his family devotions were always commenced
with singing; and, as he was a very poor singer himself, the duty
of raising the hymn generally came upon me. He would read his
hymn, and nod at me to commence. I would at times do so; at others,
I would not. My non-compliance would almost always produce much
confusion. To show himself independent of me, he would start and
stagger through with his hymn in the most discordant manner. In
this state of mind, he prayed with more than ordinary spirit.
Poor man! such was his disposition, and success at deceiving,
I do verily believe that he sometimes deceived himself into the
solemn belief, that he was a sincere worshipper of the most high
God; and this, too, at a time when he may be said to have been
guilty of compelling his woman slave to commit the sin of adultery.
The facts in the case are these: Mr. Covey was a poor man; he
was just commencing in life; he was only able to buy one slave;
and, shocking as is the fact, he bought her, as he said, for A
BREEDER. This woman was named Caroline. Mr. Covey bought her from
Mr. Thomas Lowe, about six miles from St. Michael's. She was a
large, able-bodied woman, about twenty years old. She had already
given birth to one child, which proved her to be just what he
wanted. After buying her, he hired a married man of Mr. Samuel
Harrison, to live with him one year; and him he used to fasten
up with her every night! The result was, that, at the end of the
year, the miserable woman gave birth to twins. At this result
Mr. Covey seemed to be highly pleased, both with the man and the
wretched woman. Such was his joy, and that of his wife, that nothing
they could do for Caroline during her confinement was too good,
or too hard, to be done. The children were regarded as being quite
an addition to his wealth.
If at any one time of my life more than another, I was made to
drink the bitterest dregs of slavery, that time was during the
first six months of my stay with Mr. Covey. We were worked in
all weathers. It was never too hot or too cold; it could never
rain, blow, hail, or snow, too hard for us to work in the field.
Work, work, work, was scarcely more the order of the day than
of the night. The longest days were too short for him, and the
shortest nights too long for him. I was somewhat unmanageable
when I first went there, but a few months of this discipline tamed
me. Mr. Covey succeeded in breaking me. I was broken in body,
soul, and spirit. My natural elasticity was crushed, my intellect
languished, the disposition to read departed, the cheerful spark
that lingered about my eye died; the dark night of slavery closed
in upon me; and behold a man transformed into a brute!
Sunday was my only leisure time. I spent this in a sort of beast-like
stupor, between sleep and wake, under some large tree. At times
I would rise up, a flash of energetic freedom would dart through
my soul, accompanied with a faint beam of hope, that flickered
for a moment, and then vanished. I sank down again, mourning over
my wretched condition. I was sometimes prompted to take my life,
and that of Covey, but was prevented by a combination of hope
and fear. My sufferings on this plantation seem now like a dream
rather than a stern reality.
Our house stood within a few rods of the Chesapeake Bay, whose
broad bosom was ever white with sails from every quarter of the
habitable globe. Those beautiful vessels, robed in purest white,
so delightful to the eye of freemen, were to me so many shrouded
ghosts, to terrify and torment me with thoughts of my wretched
condition. I have often, in the deep stillness of a summer's Sabbath,
stood all alone upon the lofty banks of that noble bay, and traced,
with saddened heart and tearful eye, the countless number of sails
moving off to the mighty ocean. The sight of these always affected
me powerfully. My thoughts would compel utterance; and there,
with no audience but the Almighty, I would pour out my soul's
complaint, in my rude way, with an apostrophe to the moving multitude
of ships:--
"You are loosed from your moorings, and are free; I am fast
in my chains, and am a slave! You move merrily before the gentle
gale, and I sadly before the bloody whip! You are freedom's swift-winged
angels, that fly round the world; I am confined in bands of iron!
O that I were free! O, that I were on one of your gallant decks,
and under your protecting wing! Alas! betwixt me and you, the
turbid waters roll. Go on, go on. O that I could also go! Could
I but swim! If I could fly! O, why was I born a man, of whom to
make a brute! The glad ship is gone; she hides in the dim distance.
I am left in the hottest hell of unending slavery. O God, save
me! God, deliver me! Let me be free! Is there any God? Why am
I a slave? I will run away. I will not stand it. Get caught, or
get clear, I'll try it. I had as well die with ague as the fever.
I have only one life to lose. I had as well be killed running
as die standing. Only think of it; one hundred miles straight
north, and I am free! Try it? Yes! God helping me, I will. It
cannot be that I shall live and die a slave. I will take to the
water. This very bay shall yet bear me into freedom. The steamboats
steered in a north-east course from North Point. I will do the
same; and when I get to the head of the bay, I will turn my canoe
adrift, and walk straight through Delaware into Pennsylvania.
When I get there, I shall not be required to have a pass; I can
travel without being disturbed. Let but the first opportunity
offer, and, come what will, I am off. Meanwhile, I will try to
bear up under the yoke. I am not the only slave in the world.
Why should I fret? I can bear as much as any of them. Besides,
I am but a boy, and all boys are bound to some one. It may be
that my misery in slavery will only increase my happiness when
I get free. There is a better day coming."
Thus I used to think, and thus I used to speak to myself; goaded
almost to madness at one moment, and at the next reconciling myself
to my wretched lot.
I have already intimated that my condition was much worse, during
the first six months of my stay at Mr. Covey's, than in the last
six. The circumstances leading to the change in Mr. Covey's course
toward me form an epoch in my humble history. You have seen how
a man was made a slave; you shall see how a slave was made a man.
On one of the hottest days of the month of August, 1833, Bill
Smith, William Hughes, a slave named Eli, and myself, were engaged
in fanning wheat. Hughes was clearing the fanned wheat from before
the fan. Eli was turning, Smith was feeding, and I was carrying
wheat to the fan. The work was simple, requiring strength rather
than intellect; yet, to one entirely unused to such work, it came
very hard. About three o'clock of that day, I broke down; my strength
failed me; I was seized with a violent aching of the head, attended
with extreme dizziness; I trembled in every limb. Finding what
was coming, I nerved myself up, feeling it would never do to stop
work. I stood as long as I could stagger to the hopper with grain.
When I could stand no longer, I fell, and felt as if held down
by an immense weight. The fan of course stopped; every one had
his own work to do; and no one could do the work of the other,
and have his own go on at the same time.
Mr. Covey was at the house, about one hundred yards from the treading-yard
where we were fanning. On hearing the fan stop, he left immediately,
and came to the spot where we were. He hastily inquired what the
matter was. Bill answered that I was sick, and there was no one
to bring wheat to the fan. I had by this time crawled away under
the side of the post and rail-fence by which the yard was enclosed,
hoping to find relief by getting out of the sun. He then asked
where I was. He was told by one of the hands. He came to the spot,
and, after looking at me awhile, asked me what was the matter.
I told him as well as I could, for I scarce had strength to speak.
He then gave me a savage kick in the side, and told me to get
up. I tried to do so, but fell back in the attempt. He gave me
another kick, and again told me to rise. I again tried, and succeeded
in gaining my feet; but, stooping to get the tub with which I
was feeding the fan, I again staggered and fell. While down in
this situation, Mr. Covey took up the hickory slat with which
Hughes had been striking off the half-bushel measure, and with
it gave me a heavy blow upon the head, making a large wound, and
the blood ran freely; and with this again told me to get up. I
made no effort to comply, having now made up my mind to let him
do his worst. In a short time after receiving this blow, my head
grew better. Mr. Covey had now left me to my fate. At this moment
I resolved, for the first time, to go to my master, enter a complaint,
and ask his protection. In order to do this, I must that afternoon
walk seven miles; and this, under the circumstances, was truly
a severe undertaking. I was exceedingly feeble; made so as much
by the kicks and blows which I received, as by the severe fit
of sickness to which I had been subjected. I, however, watched
my chance, while Covey was looking in an opposite direction, and
started for St. Michael's. I succeeded in getting a considerable
distance on my way to the woods, when Covey discovered me, and
called after me to come back, threatening what he would do if
I did not come. I disregarded both his calls and his threats,
and made my way to the woods as fast as my feeble state would
allow; and thinking I might be overhauled by him if I kept the
road, I walked through the woods, keeping far enough from the
road to avoid detection, and near enough to prevent losing my
way. I had not gone far before my little strength again failed
me. I could go no farther. I fell down, and lay for a considerable
time. The blood was yet oozing from the wound on my head. For
a time I thought I should bleed to death; and think now that I
should have done so, but that the blood so matted my hair as to
stop the wound. After lying there about three quarters of an hour,
I nerved myself up again, and started on my way, through bogs
and briers, barefooted and bareheaded, tearing my feet sometimes
at nearly every step; and after a journey of about seven miles,
occupying some five hours to perform it, I arrived at master's
store. I then presented an appearance enough to affect any but
a heart of iron. From the crown of my head to my feet, I was covered
with blood. My hair was all clotted with dust and blood; my shirt
was stiff with blood. I suppose I looked like a man who had escaped
a den of wild beasts, and barely escaped them. In this state I
appeared before my master, humbly entreating him to interpose
his authority for my protection. I told him all the circumstances
as well as I could, and it seemed, as I spoke, at times to affect
him. He would then walk the floor, and seek to justify Covey by
saying he expected I deserved it. He asked me what I wanted. I
told him, to let me get a new home; that as sure as I lived with
Mr. Covey again, I should live with but to die with him; that
Covey would surely kill me; he was in a fair way for it. Master
Thomas ridiculed the idea that there was any danger of Mr. Covey's
killing me, and said that he knew Mr. Covey; that he was a good
man, and that he could not think of taking me from him; that,
should he do so, he would lose the whole year's wages; that I
belonged to Mr. Covey for one year, and that I must go back to
him, come what might; and that I must not trouble him with any
more stories, or that he would himself GET HOLD OF ME. After threatening
me thus, he gave me a very large dose of salts, telling me that
I might remain in St. Michael's that night, (it being quite late,)
but that I must be off back to Mr. Covey's early in the morning;
and that if I did not, he would ~get hold of me,~ which meant
that he would whip me. I remained all night, and, according to
his orders, I started off to Covey's in the morning, (Saturday
morning,) wearied in body and broken in spirit. I got no supper
that night, or breakfast that morning. I reached Covey's about
nine o'clock; and just as I was getting over the fence that divided
Mrs. Kemp's fields from ours, out ran Covey with his cowskin,
to give me another whipping. Before he could reach me, I succeeded
in getting to the cornfield; and as the corn was very high, it
afforded me the means of hiding. He seemed very angry, and searched
for me a long time. My behavior was altogether unaccountable.
He finally gave up the chase, thinking, I suppose, that I must
come home for something to eat; he would give himself no further
trouble in looking for me. I spent that day mostly in the woods,
having the alternative before me,--to go home and be whipped to
death, or stay in the woods and be starved to death. That night,
I fell in with Sandy Jenkins, a slave with whom I was somewhat
acquainted. Sandy had a free wife who lived about four miles from
Mr. Covey's; and it being Saturday, he was on his way to see her.
I told him my circumstances, and he very kindly invited me to
go home with him. I went home with him, and talked this whole
matter over, and got his advice as to what course it was best
for me to pursue. I found Sandy an old adviser. He told me, with
great solemnity, I must go back to Covey; but that before I went,
I must go with him into another part of the woods, where there
was a certain ~root,~ which, if I would take some of it with me,
carrying it ~always on my right side,~ would render it impossible
for Mr. Covey, or any other white man, to whip me. He said he
had carried it for years; and since he had done so, he had never
received a blow, and never expected to while he carried it. I
at first rejected the idea, that the simple carrying of a root
in my pocket would have any such effect as he had said, and was
not disposed to take it; but Sandy impressed the necessity with
much earnestness, telling me it could do no harm, if it did no
good. To please him, I at length took the root, and, according
to his direction, carried it upon my right side. This was Sunday
morning. I immediately started for home; and upon entering the
yard gate, out came Mr. Covey on his way to meeting. He spoke
to me very kindly, bade me drive the pigs from a lot near by,
and passed on towards the church. Now, this singular conduct of
Mr. Covey really made me begin to think that there was something
in the ROOT which Sandy had given me; and had it been on any other
day than Sunday, I could have attributed the conduct to no other
cause than the influence of that root; and as it was, I was half
inclined to think the ~root~ to be something more than I at first
had taken it to be. All went well till Monday morning. On this
morning, the virtue of the ROOT was fully tested. Long before
daylight, I was called to go and rub, curry, and feed, the horses.
I obeyed, and was glad to obey. But whilst thus engaged, whilst
in the act of throwing down some blades from the loft, Mr. Covey
entered the stable with a long rope; and just as I was half out
of the loft, he caught hold of my legs, and was about tying me.
As soon as I found what he was up to, I gave a sudden spring,
and as I did so, he holding to my legs, I was brought sprawling
on the stable floor. Mr. Covey seemed now to think he had me,
and could do what he pleased; but at this moment-from whence came
the spirit I don't know--I resolved to fight; and, suiting my
action to the resolution, I seized Covey hard by the throat; and
as I did so, I rose. He held on to me, and I to him. My resistance
was so entirely unexpected that Covey seemed taken all aback.
He trembled like a leaf. This gave me assurance, and I held him
uneasy, causing the blood to run where I touched him with the
ends of my fingers. Mr. Covey soon called out to Hughes for help.
Hughes came, and, while Covey held me, attempted to tie my right
hand. While he was in the act of doing so, I watched my chance,
and gave him a heavy kick close under the ribs. This kick fairly
sickened Hughes, so that he left me in the hands of Mr. Covey.
This kick had the effect of not only weakening Hughes, but Covey
also. When he saw Hughes bending over with pain, his courage quailed.
He asked me if I meant to persist in my resistance. I told him
I did, come what might; that he had used me like a brute for six
months, and that I was determined to be used so no longer. With
that, he strove to drag me to a stick that was lying just out
of the stable door. He meant to knock me down. But just as he
was leaning over to get the stick, I seized him with both hands
by his collar, and brought him by a sudden snatch to the ground.
By this time, Bill came. Covey called upon him for assistance.
Bill wanted to know what he could do. Covey said, "Take hold
of him, take hold of him!" Bill said his master hired him
out to work, and not to help to whip me; so he left Covey and
myself to fight our own battle out. We were at it for nearly two
hours. Covey at length let me go, puffing and blowing at a great
rate, saying that if I had not resisted, he would not have whipped
me half so much. The truth was, that he had not whipped me at
all. I considered him as getting entirely the worst end of the
bargain; for he had drawn no blood from me, but I had from him.
The whole six months afterwards, that I spent with Mr. Covey,
he never laid the weight of his finger upon me in anger. He would
occasionally say, he didn't want to get hold of me again. "No,"
thought I, "you need not; for you will come off worse than
you did before."
This battle with Mr. Covey was the turningpoint in my career as
a slave. It rekindled the few expiring embers of freedom, and
revived within me a sense of my own manhood. It recalled the departed
self-confidence, and inspired me again with a determination to
be free. The gratification afforded by the triumph was a full
compensation for whatever else might follow, even death itself.
He only can understand the deep satisfaction which I experienced,
who has himself repelled by force the bloody arm of slavery. I
felt as I never felt before. It was a glorious resurrection, from
the tomb of slavery, to the heaven of freedom. My long-crushed
spirit rose, cowardice departed, bold defiance took its place;
and I now resolved that, however long I might remain a slave in
form, the day had passed forever when I could be a slave in fact.
I did not hesitate to let it be known of me, that the white man
who expected to succeed in whipping, must also succeed in killing
me.
From this time I was never again what might be called fairly whipped,
though I remained a slave four years afterwards. I had several
fights, but was never whipped.
It was for a long time a matter of surprise to me why Mr. Covey
did not immediately have me taken by the constable to the whipping-post,
and there regularly whipped for the crime of raising my hand against
a white man in defence of myself. And the only explanation I can
now think of does not entirely satisfy me; but such as it is,
I will give it. Mr. Covey enjoyed the most unbounded reputation
for being a first-rate overseer and negro-breaker. It was of considerable
importance to him. That reputation was at stake; and had he sent
me--a boy about sixteen years old--to the public whipping-post,
his reputation would have been lost; so, to save his reputation,
he suffered me to go unpunished.
My term of actual service to Mr. Edward Covey ended on Christmas
day, 1833. The days between Christmas and New Year's day are allowed
as holidays; and, accordingly, we were not required to perform
any labor, more than to feed and take care of the stock. This
time we regarded as our own, by the grace of our masters; and
we therefore used or abused it nearly as we pleased. Those of
us who had families at a distance, were generally allowed to spend
the whole six days in their society. This time, however, was spent
in various ways. The staid, sober, thinking and industrious ones
of our number would employ themselves in making corn-brooms, mats,
horse-collars, and baskets; and another class of us would spend
the time in hunting opossums, hares, and coons. But by far the
larger part engaged in such sports and merriments as playing ball,
wrestling, running foot-races, fiddling, dancing, and drinking
whisky; and this latter mode of spending the time was by far the
most agreeable to the feelings of our masters. A slave who would
work during the holidays was considered by our masters as scarcely
deserving them. He was regarded as one who rejected the favor
of his master. It was deemed a disgrace not to get drunk at Christmas;
and he was regarded as lazy indeed, who had not provided himself
with the necessary means, during the year, to get whisky enough
to last him through Christmas.
From what I know of the effect of these holidays upon the slave,
I believe them to be among the most effective means in the hands
of the slaveholder in keeping down the spirit of insurrection.
Were the slaveholders at once to abandon this practice, I have
not the slightest doubt it would lead to an immediate insurrection
among the slaves. These holidays serve as conductors, or safety-valves,
to carry off the rebellious spirit of enslaved humanity. But for
these, the slave would be forced up to the wildest desperation;
and woe betide the slaveholder, the day he ventures to remove
or hinder the operation of those conductors! I warn him that,
in such an event, a spirit will go forth in their midst, more
to be dreaded than the most appalling earthquake.
The holidays are part and parcel of the gross fraud, wrong, and
inhumanity of slavery. They are professedly a custom established
by the benevolence of the slaveholders; but I undertake to say,
it is the result of selfishness, and one of the grossest frauds
committed upon the down-trodden slave. They do not give the slaves
this time because they would not like to have their work during
its continuance, but because they know it would be unsafe to deprive
them of it. This will be seen by the fact, that the slaveholders
like to have their slaves spend those days just in such a manner
as to make them as glad of their ending as of their beginning.
Their object seems to be, to disgust their slaves with freedom,
by plunging them into the lowest depths of dissipation. For instance,
the slaveholders not only like to see the slave drink of his own
accord, but will adopt various plans to make him drunk. One plan
is, to make bets on their slaves, as to who can drink the most
whisky without getting drunk; and in this way they succeed in
getting whole multitudes to drink to excess. Thus, when the slave
asks for virtuous freedom, the cunning slaveholder, knowing his
ignorance, cheats him with a dose of vicious dissipation, artfully
labelled with the name of liberty. The most of us used to drink
it down, and the result was just what might be supposed; many
of us were led to think that there was little to choose between
liberty and slavery. We felt, and very properly too, that we had
almost as well be slaves to man as to rum. So, when the holidays
ended, we staggered up from the filth of our wallowing, took a
long breath, and marched to the field,--feeling, upon the whole,
rather glad to go, from what our master had deceived us into a
belief was freedom, back to the arms of slavery.
I have said that this mode of treatment is a part of the whole
system of fraud and inhumanity of slavery. It is so. The mode
here adopted to disgust the slave with freedom, by allowing him
to see only the abuse of it, is carried out in other things. For
instance, a slave loves molasses; he steals some. His master,
in many cases, goes off to town, and buys a large quantity; he
returns, takes his whip, and commands the slave to eat the molasses,
until the poor fellow is made sick at the very mention of it.
The same mode is sometimes adopted to make the slaves refrain
from asking for more food than their regular allowance. A slave
runs through his allowance, and applies for more. His master is
enraged at him; but, not willing to send him off without food,
gives him more than is necessary, and compels him to eat it within
a given time. Then, if he complains that he cannot eat it, he
is said to be satisfied neither full nor fasting, and is whipped
for being hard to please! I have an abundance of such illustrations
of the same principle, drawn from my own observation, but think
the cases I have cited sufficient. The practice is a very common
one.
On the first of January, 1834, I left Mr. Covey, and went to live
with Mr. William Freeland, who lived about three miles from St.
Michael's. I soon found Mr. Freeland a very different man from
Mr. Covey. Though not rich, he was what would be called an educated
southern gentleman. Mr. Covey, as I have shown, was a well-trained
negro-breaker and slave-driver. The former (slaveholder though
he was) seemed to possess some regard for honor, some reverence
for justice, and some respect for humanity. The latter seemed
totally insensible to all such sentiments. Mr. Freeland had many
of the faults peculiar to slaveholders, such as being very passionate
and fretful; but I must do him the justice to say, that he was
exceedingly free from those degrading vices to which Mr. Covey
was constantly addicted. The one was open and frank, and we always
knew where to find him. The other was a most artful deceiver,
and could be understood only by such as were skilful enough to
detect his cunningly-devised frauds. Another advantage I gained
in my new master was, he made no pretensions to, or profession
of, religion; and this, in my opinion, was truly a great advantage.
I assert most unhesitatingly, that the religion of the south is
a mere covering for the most horrid crimes,--a justifier of the
most appalling barbarity,--a sanctifier of the most hateful frauds,--and
a dark shelter under, which the darkest, foulest, grossest, and
most infernal deeds of slaveholders find the strongest protection.
Were I to be again reduced to the chains of slavery, next to that
enslavement, I should regard being the slave of a religious master
the greatest calamity that could befall me. For of all slaveholders
with whom I have ever met, religious slaveholders are the worst.
I have ever found them the meanest and basest, the most cruel
and cowardly, of all others. It was my unhappy lot not only to
belong to a religious slaveholder, but to live in a community
of such religionists. Very near Mr. Freeland lived the Rev. Daniel
Weeden, and in the same neighborhood lived the Rev. Rigby Hopkins.
These were members and ministers in the Reformed Methodist Church.
Mr. Weeden owned, among others, a woman slave, whose name I have
forgotten. This woman's back, for weeks, was kept literally raw,
made so by the lash of this merciless, ~religious~ wretch. He
used to hire hands. His maxim was, Behave well or behave ill,
it is the duty of a master occasionally to whip a slave, to remind
him of his master's authority. Such was his theory, and such his
practice.
Mr. Hopkins was even worse than Mr. Weeden. His chief boast was
his ability to manage slaves. The peculiar feature of his government
was that of whipping slaves in advance of deserving it. He always
managed to have one or more of his slaves to whip every Monday
morning. He did this to alarm their fears, and strike terror into
those who escaped. His plan was to whip for the smallest offences,
to prevent the commission of large ones. Mr. Hopkins could always
find some excuse for whipping a slave. It would astonish one,
unaccustomed to a slaveholding life, to see with what wonderful
ease a slaveholder can find things, of which to make occasion
to whip a slave. A mere look, word, or motion,--a mistake, accident,
or want of power,--are all matters for which a slave may be whipped
at any time. Does a slave look dissatisfied? It is said, he has
the devil in him, and it must be whipped out. Does he speak loudly
when spoken to by his master? Then he is getting high-minded,
and should be taken down a button-hole lower. Does he forget to
pull off his hat at the approach of a white person? Then he is
wanting in reverence, and should be whipped for it. Does he ever
venture to vindicate his conduct, when censured for it? Then he
is guilty of impudence,--one of the greatest crimes of which a
slave can be guilty. Does he ever venture to suggest a different
mode of doing things from that pointed out by his master? He is
indeed presumptuous, and getting above himself; and nothing less
than a flogging will do for him. Does he, while ploughing, break
a plough,--or, while hoeing, break a hoe? It is owing to his carelessness,
and for it a slave must always be whipped. Mr. Hopkins could always
find something of this sort to justify the use of the lash, and
he seldom failed to embrace such opportunities. There was not
a man in the whole county, with whom the slaves who had the getting
their own home, would not prefer to live, rather than with this
Rev. Mr. Hopkins. And yet there was not a man any where round,
who made higher professions of religion, or was more active in
revivals,--more attentive to the class, love-feast, prayer and
preaching meetings, or more devotional in his family,-that prayed
earlier, later, louder, and longer,--than this same reverend slave-driver,
Rigby Hopkins.
But to return to Mr. Freeland, and to my experience while in his
employment. He, like Mr. Covey, gave us enough to eat; but, unlike
Mr. Covey, he also gave us sufficient time to take our meals.
He worked us hard, but always between sunrise and sunset. He required
a good deal of work to be done, but gave us good tools with which
to work. His farm was large, but he employed hands enough to work
it, and with ease, compared with many of his neighbors. My treatment,
while in his employment, was heavenly, compared with what I experienced
at the hands of Mr. Edward Covey.
Mr. Freeland was himself the owner of but two slaves. Their names
were Henry Harris and John Harris. The rest of his hands he hired.
These consisted of myself, Sandy Jenkins,* and Handy Caldwell.
Henry and John were quite intelligent, and in a very little while
after I went there, I succeeded in creating in them a strong desire
to learn how to read. This desire soon sprang up in the others
also. They very soon mustered up some old spelling-books, and
nothing would do but that I must keep a Sabbath school. I agreed
to do so, and accordingly devoted my Sundays to teaching these
my loved fellow-slaves how to read. Neither of them knew his letters
when I went there. Some of the slaves of the neighboring farms
found what was going on, and also availed themselves of this little
opportunity to learn to read. It was understood, among all who
came, that there must be as little display about it as possible.
It was necessary to keep our religious masters at St. Michael's
unacquainted with the fact, that, instead of spending the Sabbath
in wrestling, boxing, and drinking whisky, we were trying to learn
how to read the will of God; for they had much
*This is the same man who gave me the roots to prevent my being
whipped by Mr. Covey. He was "a clever soul." We used
frequently to talk about the fight with Covey, and as often as
we did so, he would claim my success as the result of the roots
which he gave me. This superstition is very common among the more
ignorant slaves. A slave seldom dies but that his death is attributed
to trickery. rather see us engaged in those degrading sports,
than to see us behaving like intellectual, moral, and accountable
beings. My blood boils as I think of the bloody manner in which
Messrs. Wright Fairbanks and Garrison West, both class-leaders,
in connection with many others, rushed in upon us with sticks
and stones, and broke up our virtuous little Sabbath school, at
St. Michael's--all calling themselves Christians! humble followers
of the Lord Jesus Christ! But I am again digressing.
I held my Sabbath school at the house of a free colored man, whose
name I deem it imprudent to mention; for should it be known, it
might embarrass him greatly, though the crime of holding the school
was committed ten years ago. I had at one time over forty scholars,
and those of the right sort, ardently desiring to learn. They
were of all ages, though mostly men and women. I look back to
those Sundays with an amount of pleasure not to be expressed.
They were great days to my soul. The work of instructing my dear
fellow-slaves was the sweetest engagement with which I was ever
blessed. We loved each other, and to leave them at the close of
the Sabbath was a severe cross indeed. When I think that these
precious souls are to-day shut up in the prison-house of slavery,
my feelings overcome me, and I am almost ready to ask, "Does
a righteous God govern the universe? and for what does he hold
the thunders in his right hand, if not to smite the oppressor,
and deliver the spoiled out of the hand of the spoiler?"
These dear souls came not to Sabbath school because it was popular
to do so, nor did I teach them because it was reputable to be
thus engaged. Every moment they spent in that school, they were
liable to be taken up, and given thirtynine lashes. They came
because they wished to learn. Their minds had been starved by
their cruel masters. They had been shut up in mental darkness.
I taught them, because it was the delight of my soul to be doing
something that looked like bettering the condition of my race.
I kept up my school nearly the whole year I lived with Mr. Freeland;
and, beside my Sabbath school, I devoted three evenings in the
week, during the winter, to teaching the slaves at home. And I
have the happiness to know, that several of those who came to
Sabbath school learned how to read; and that one, at least, is
now free through my agency.
The year passed off smoothly. It seemed only about half as long
as the year which preceded it. I went through it without receiving
a single blow. I will give Mr. Freeland the credit of being the
best master I ever had, ~till I became my own master.~ For the
ease with which I passed the year, I was, however, somewhat indebted
to the society of my fellow-slaves. They were noble souls; they
not only possessed loving hearts, but brave ones. We were linked
and interlinked with each other. I loved them with a love stronger
than any thing I have experienced since. It is sometimes said
that we slaves do not love and confide in each other. In answer
to this assertion, I can say, I never loved any or confided in
any people more than my fellowslaves, and especially those with
whom I lived at Mr. Freeland's. I believe we would have died for
each other. We never undertook to do any thing, of any importance,
without a mutual consultation. We never moved separately. We were
one; and as much so by our tempers and dispositions, as by the
mutual hardships to which we were necessarily subjected by our
condition as slaves.
At the close of the year 1834, Mr. Freeland again hired me of
my master, for the year 1835. But, by this time, I began to want
to live ~upon free land~ as well as ~with freeland;~ and I was
no longer content, therefore, to live with him or any other slaveholder.
I began, with the commencement of the year, to prepare myself
for a final struggle, which should decide my fate one way or the
other. My tendency was upward. I was fast approaching manhood,
and year after year had passed, and I was still a slave. These
thoughts roused me--I must do something. I therefore resolved
that 1835 should not pass without witnessing an attempt, on my
part, to secure my liberty. But I was not willing to cherish this
determination alone. My fellow-slaves were dear to me. I was anxious
to have them participate with me in this, my life-giving determination.
I therefore, though with great prudence, commenced early to ascertain
their views and feelings in regard to their condition, and to
imbue their minds with thoughts of freedom. I bent myself to devising
ways and means for our escape, and meanwhile strove, on all fitting
occasions, to impress them with the gross fraud and inhumanity
of slavery. I went first to Henry, next to John, then to the others.
I found, in them all, warm hearts and noble spirits. They were
ready to hear, and ready to act when a feasible plan should be
proposed. This was what I wanted. I talked to them of our want
of manhood, if we submitted to our enslavement without at least
one noble effort to be free. We met often, and consulted frequently,
and told our hopes and fears, recounted the difficulties, real
and imagined, which we should be called on to meet. At times we
were almost disposed to give up, and try to content ourselves
with our wretched lot; at others, we were firm and unbending in
our determination to go. Whenever we suggested any plan, there
was shrinking--the odds were fearful. Our path was beset with
the greatest obstacles; and if we succeeded in gaining the end
of it, our right to be free was yet questionable--we were yet
liable to be returned to bondage. We could see no spot, this side
of the ocean, where we could be free. We knew nothing about Canada.
Our knowledge of the north did not extend farther than New York;
and to go there, and be forever harassed with the frightful liability
of being returned to slavery--with the certainty of being treated
tenfold worse than before--the thought was truly a horrible one,
and one which it was not easy to overcome. The case sometimes
stood thus: At every gate through which we were to pass, we saw
a watchman --at every ferry a guard--on every bridge a sentinel-and
in every wood a patrol. We were hemmed in upon every side. Here
were the difficulties, real or imagined--the good to be sought,
and the evil to be shunned. On the one hand, there stood slavery,
a stern reality, glaring frightfully upon us,--its robes already
crimsoned with the blood of millions, and even now feasting itself
greedily upon our own flesh. On the other hand, away back in the
dim distance, under the flickering light of the north star, behind
some craggy hill or snow-covered mountain, stood a doubtful freedom--half
frozen--beckoning us to come and share its hospitality. This in
itself was sometimes enough to stagger us; but when we permitted
ourselves to survey the road, we were frequently appalled. Upon
either side we saw grim death, assuming the most horrid shapes.
Now it was starvation, causing us to eat our own flesh;--now we
were contending with the waves, and were drowned; --now we were
overtaken, and torn to pieces by the fangs of the terrible bloodhound.
We were stung by scorpions, chased by wild beasts, bitten by snakes,
and finally, after having nearly reached the desired spot,--after
swimming rivers, encountering wild beasts, sleeping in the woods,
suffering hunger and nakedness,--we were overtaken by our pursuers,
and, in our resistance, we were shot dead upon the spot! I say,
this picture sometimes appalled us, and made us
"rather bear those ills we had,
Than fly to others, that we knew not of."
In coming to a fixed determination to run away, we did more than
Patrick Henry, when he resolved upon liberty or death. With us
it was a doubtful liberty at most, and almost certain death if
we failed. For my part, I should prefer death to hopeless bondage.
Sandy, one of our number, gave up the notion, but still encouraged
us. Our company then consisted of Henry Harris, John Harris, Henry
Bailey, Charles Roberts, and myself. Henry Bailey was my uncle,
and belonged to my master. Charles married my aunt: he belonged
to my master's father-in-law, Mr. William Hamilton.
The plan we finally concluded upon was, to get a large canoe belonging
to Mr. Hamilton, and upon the Saturday night previous to Easter
holidays, paddle directly up the Chesapeake Bay. On our arrival
at the head of the bay, a distance of seventy or eighty miles
from where we lived, it was our purpose to turn our canoe adrift,
and follow the guidance of the north star till we got beyond the
limits of Maryland. Our reason for taking the water route was,
that we were less liable to be suspected as runaways; we hoped
to be regarded as fishermen; whereas, if we should take the land
route, we should be subjected to interruptions of almost every
kind. Any one having a white face, and being so disposed, could
stop us, and subject us to examination.
The week before our intended start, I wrote several protections,
one for each of us. As well as I can remember, they were in the
following words, to wit:--
"This is to certify that I, the undersigned, have given the
bearer, my servant, full liberty to go to Baltimore, and spend
the Easter holidays. Written with mine own hand, &c., 1835.
"WILLIAM HAMILTON,
"Near St. Michael's, in Talbot county, Maryland."
We were not going to Baltimore; but, in going up the bay, we went
toward Baltimore, and these protections were only intended to
protect us while on the bay.
As the time drew near for our departure, our anxiety became more
and more intense. It was truly a matter of life and death with
us. The strength of our determination was about to be fully tested.
At this time, I was very active in explaining every difficulty,
removing every doubt, dispelling every fear, and inspiring all
with the firmness indispensable to success in our undertaking;
assuring them that half was gained the instant we made the move;
we had talked long enough; we were now ready to move; if not now,
we never should be; and if we did not intend to move now, we had
as well fold our arms, sit down, and acknowledge ourselves fit
only to be slaves. This, none of us were prepared to acknowledge.
Every man stood firm; and at our last meeting, we pledged ourselves
afresh, in the most solemn manner, that, at the time appointed,
we would certainly start in pursuit of freedom. This was in the
middle of the week, at the end of which we were to be off. We
went, as usual, to our several fields of labor, but with bosoms
highly agitated with thoughts of our truly hazardous undertaking.
We tried to conceal our feelings as much as possible; and I think
we succeeded very well.
After a painful waiting, the Saturday morning, whose night was
to witness our departure, came. I hailed it with joy, bring what
of sadness it might. Friday night was a sleepless one for me.
I probably felt more anxious than the rest, because I was, by
common consent, at the head of the whole affair. The responsibility
of success or failure lay heavily upon me. The glory of the one,
and the confusion of the other, were alike mine. The first two
hours of that morning were such as I never experienced before,
and hope never to again. Early in the morning, we went, as usual,
to the field. We were spreading manure; and all at once, while
thus engaged, I was overwhelmed with an indescribable feeling,
in the fulness of which I turned to Sandy, who was near by, and
said, "We are betrayed!" "Well," said he,
"that thought has this moment struck me." We said no
more. I was never more certain of any thing.
The horn was blown as usual, and we went up from the field to
the house for breakfast. I went for the form, more than for want
of any thing to eat that morning. Just as I got to the house,
in looking out at the lane gate, I saw four white men, with two
colored men. The white men were on horseback, and the colored
ones were walking behind, as if tied. I watched them a few moments
till they got up to our lane gate. Here they halted, and tied
the colored men to the gate-post. I was not yet certain as to
what the matter was. In a few moments, in rode Mr. Hamilton, with
a speed betokening great excitement. He came to the door, and
inquired if Master William was in. He was told he was at the barn.
Mr. Hamilton, without dismounting, rode up to the barn with extraordinary
speed. In a few moments, he and Mr. Freeland returned to the house.
By this time, the three constables rode up, and in great haste
dismounted, tied their horses, and met Master William and Mr.
Hamilton returning from the barn; and after talking awhile, they
all walked up to the kitchen door. There was no one in the kitchen
but myself and John. Henry and Sandy were up at the barn. Mr.
Freeland put his head in at the door, and called me by name, saying,
there were some gentlemen at the door who wished to see me. I
stepped to the door, and inquired what they wanted. They at once
seized me, and, without giving me any satisfaction, tied me--lashing
my hands closely together. I insisted upon knowing what the matter
was. They at length said, that they had learned I had been in
a "scrape," and that I was to be examined before my
master; and if their information proved false, I should not be
hurt.
In a few moments, they succeeded in tying John. They then turned
to Henry, who had by this time returned, and commanded him to
cross his hands. "I won't!" said Henry, in a firm tone,
indicating his readiness to meet the consequences of his refusal.
"Won't you?" said Tom Graham, the constable. "No,
I won't!" said Henry, in a still stronger tone. With this,
two of the constables pulled out their shining pistols, and swore,
by their Creator, that they would make him cross his hands or
kill him. Each cocked his pistol, and, with fingers on the trigger,
walked up to Henry, saying, at the same time, if he did not cross
his hands, they would blow his damned heart out. "Shoot me,
shoot me!" said Henry; "you can't kill me but once.
Shoot, shoot,--and be damned! ~I won't be tied!~" This he
said in a tone of loud defiance; and at the same time, with a
motion as quick as lightning, he with one single stroke dashed
the pistols from the hand of each constable. As he did this, all
hands fell upon him, and, after beating him some time, they finally
overpowered him, and got him tied.
During the scuffle, I managed, I know not how, to get my pass
out, and, without being discovered, put it into the fire. We were
all now tied; and just as we were to leave for Easton jail, Betsy
Freeland, mother of William Freeland, came to the door with her
hands full of biscuits, and divided them between Henry and John.
She then delivered herself of a speech, to the following effect:--addressing
herself to me, she said, "~You devil! You yellow devil!~
it was you that put it into the heads of Henry and John to run
away. But for you, you long-legged mulatto devil! Henry nor John
would never have thought of such a thing." I made no reply,
and was immediately hurried off towards St. Michael's. Just a
moment previous to the scuffle with Henry, Mr. Hamilton suggested
the propriety of making a search for the protections which he
had understood Frederick had written for himself and the rest.
But, just at the moment he was about carrying his proposal into
effect, his aid was needed in helping to tie Henry; and the excitement
attending the scuffle caused them either to forget, or to deem
it unsafe, under the circumstances, to search. So we were not
yet convicted of the intention to run away.
When we got about half way to St. Michael's, while the constables
having us in charge were looking ahead, Henry inquired of me what
he should do with his pass. I told him to eat it with his biscuit,
and own nothing; and we passed the word around, "~Own nothing;~"
and "~Own nothing!~" said we all. Our confidence in
each other was unshaken. We were resolved to succeed or fail together,
after the calamity had befallen us as much as before. We were
now prepared for any thing. We were to be dragged that morning
fifteen miles behind horses, and then to be placed in the Easton
jail. When we reached St. Michael's, we underwent a sort of examination.
We all denied that we ever intended to run away. We did this more
to bring out the evidence against us, than from any hope of getting
clear of being sold; for, as I have said, we were ready for that.
The fact was, we cared but little where we went, so we went together.
Our greatest concern was about separation. We dreaded that more
than any thing this side of death. We found the evidence against
us to be the testimony of one person; our master would not tell
who it was; but we came to a unanimous decision among ourselves
as to who their informant was. We were sent off to the jail at
Easton. When we got there, we were delivered up to the sheriff,
Mr. Joseph Graham, and by him placed in jail. Henry, John, and
myself, were placed in one room together--Charles, and Henry Bailey,
in another. Their object in separating us was to hinder concert.
We had been in jail scarcely twenty minutes, when a swarm of slave
traders, and agents for slave traders, flocked into jail to look
at us, and to ascertain if we were for sale. Such a set of beings
I never saw before! I felt myself surrounded by so many fiends
from perdition. A band of pirates never looked more like their
father, the devil. They laughed and grinned over us, saying, "Ah,
my boys! we have got you, haven't we?" And after taunting
us in various ways, they one by one went into an examination of
us, with intent to ascertain our value. They would impudently
ask us if we would not like to have them for our masters. We would
make them no answer, and leave them to find out as best they could.
Then they would curse and swear at us, telling us that they could
take the devil out of us in a very little while, if we were only
in their hands.
While in jail, we found ourselves in much more comfortable quarters
than we expected when we went there. We did not get much to eat,
nor that which was very good; but we had a good clean room, from
the windows of which we could see what was going on in the street,
which was very much better than though we had been placed in one
of the dark, damp cells. Upon the whole, we got along very well,
so far as the jail and its keeper were concerned. Immediately
after the holidays were over, contrary to all our expectations,
Mr. Hamilton and Mr. Freeland came up to Easton, and took Charles,
the two Henrys, and John, out of jail, and carried them home,
leaving me alone. I regarded this separation as a final one. It
caused me more pain than any thing else in the whole transaction.
I was ready for any thing rather than separation. I supposed that
they had consulted together, and had decided that, as I was the
whole cause of the intention of the others to run away, it was
hard to make the innocent suffer with the guilty; and that they
had, therefore, concluded to take the others home, and sell me,
as a warning to the others that remained. It is due to the noble
Henry to say, he seemed almost as reluctant at leaving the prison
as at leaving home to come to the prison. But we knew we should,
in all probability, be separated, if we were sold; and since he
was in their hands, he concluded to go peaceably home.
I was now left to my fate. I was all alone, and within the walls
of a stone prison. But a few days before, and I was full of hope.
I expected to have been safe in a land of freedom; but now I was
covered with gloom, sunk down to the utmost despair. I thought
the possibility of freedom was gone. I was kept in this way about
one week, at the end of which, Captain Auld, my master, to my
surprise and utter astonishment, came up, and took me out, with
the intention of sending me, with a gentleman of his acquaintance,
into Alabama. But, from some cause or other, he did not send me
to Alabama, but concluded to send me back to Baltimore, to live
again with his brother Hugh, and to learn a trade.
Thus, after an absence of three years and one month, I was once
more permitted to return to my old home at Baltimore. My master
sent me away, because there existed against me a very great prejudice
in the community, and he feared I might be killed.
In a few weeks after I went to Baltimore, Master Hugh hired me
to Mr. William Gardner, an extensive ship-builder, on Fell's Point.
I was put there to learn how to calk. It, however, proved a very
unfavorable place for the accomplishment of this object. Mr. Gardner
was engaged that spring in building two large man-of-war brigs,
professedly for the Mexican government. The vessels were to be
launched in the July of that year, and in failure thereof, Mr.
Gardner was to lose a considerable sum; so that when I entered,
all was hurry. There was no time to learn any thing. Every man
had to do that which he knew how to do. In entering the shipyard,
my orders from Mr. Gardner were, to do whatever the carpenters
commanded me to do. This was placing me at the beck and call of
about seventy-five men. I was to regard all these as masters.
Their word was to be my law. My situation was a most trying one.
At times I needed a dozen pair of hands. I was called a dozen
ways in the space of a single minute. Three or four voices would
strike my ear at the same moment. It was--"Fred., come help
me to cant this timber here."--"Fred., come carry this
timber yonder."--"Fred., bring that roller here."-"Fred.,
go get a fresh can of water."--"Fred., come help saw
off the end of this timber."--"Fred., go quick, and
get the crowbar."--"Fred., hold on the end of this fall."--"Fred.,
go to the blacksmith's shop, and get a new punch."--"Hurra,
Fred.! run and bring me a cold chisel."--"I say, Fred.,
bear a hand, and get up a fire as quick as lightning under that
steam-box."--"Halloo, nigger! come, turn this grindstone."--"Come,
come! move, move! and BOWSE this timber forward."--"I
say, darky, blast your eyes, why don't you heat up some pitch?"--"Halloo!
halloo! halloo!" (Three voices at the same time.) "Come
here!--Go there!--Hold on where you are! Damn you, if you move,
I'll knock your brains out!"
This was my school for eight months; and I might have remained
there longer, but for a most horrid fight I had with four of the
white apprentices, in which my left eye was nearly knocked out,
and I was horribly mangled in other respects. The facts in the
case were these: Until a very little while after I went there,
white and black ship-carpenters worked side by side, and no one
seemed to see any impropriety in it. All hands seemed to be very
well satisfied. Many of the black carpenters were freemen. Things
seemed to be going on very well. All at once, the white carpenters
knocked off, and said they would not work with free colored workmen.
Their reason for this, as alleged, was, that if free colored carpenters
were encouraged, they would soon take the trade into their own
hands, and poor white men would be thrown out of employment. They
therefore felt called upon at once to put a stop to it. And, taking
advantage of Mr. Gardner's necessities, they broke off, swearing
they would work no longer, unless he would discharge his black
carpenters. Now, though this did not extend to me in form, it
did reach me in fact. My fellow-apprentices very soon began to
feel it degrading to them to work with me. They began to put on
airs, and talk about the "niggers" taking the country,
saying we all ought to be killed; and, being encouraged by the
journeymen, they commenced making my condition as hard as they
could, by hectoring me around, and sometimes striking me. I, of
course, kept the vow I made after the fight with Mr. Covey, and
struck back again, regardless of consequences; and while I kept
them from combining, I succeeded very well; for I could whip the
whole of them, taking them separately. They, however, at length
combined, and came upon me, armed with sticks, stones, and heavy
handspikes. One came in front with a half brick. There was one
at each side of me, and one behind me. While I was attending to
those in front, and on either side, the one behind ran up with
the handspike, and struck me a heavy blow upon the head. It stunned
me. I fell, and with this they all ran upon me, and fell to beating
me with their fists. I let them lay on for a while, gathering
strength. In an instant, I gave a sudden surge, and rose to my
hands and knees. Just as I did that, one of their number gave
me, with his heavy boot, a powerful kick in the left eye. My eyeball
seemed to have burst. When they saw my eye closed, and badly swollen,
they left me. With this I seized the handspike, and for a time
pursued them. But here the carpenters interfered, and I thought
I might as well give it up. It was impossible to stand my hand
against so many. All this took place in sight of not less than
fifty white ship-carpenters, and not one interposed a friendly
word; but some cried, "Kill the damned nigger! Kill him!
kill him! He struck a white person." I found my only chance
for life was in flight. I succeeded in getting away without an
additional blow, and barely so; for to strike a white man is death
by Lynch law,--and that was the law in Mr. Gardner's ship-yard;
nor is there much of any other out of Mr. Gardner's ship-yard.
I went directly home, and told the story of my wrongs to Master
Hugh; and I am happy to say of him, irreligious as he was, his
conduct was heavenly, compared with that of his brother Thomas
under similar circumstances. He listened attentively to my narration
of the circumstances leading to the savage outrage, and gave many
proofs of his strong indignation at it. The heart of my once overkind
mistress was again melted into pity. My puffed-out eye and blood-covered
face moved her to tears. She took a chair by me, washed the blood
from my face, and, with a mother's tenderness, bound up my head,
covering the wounded eye with a lean piece of fresh beef. It was
almost compensation for my suffering to witness, once more, a
manifestation of kindness from this, my once affectionate old
mistress. Master Hugh was very much enraged. He gave expression
to his feelings by pouring out curses upon the heads of those
who did the deed. As soon as I got a little the better of my bruises,
he took me with him to Esquire Watson's, on Bond Street, to see
what could be done about the matter. Mr. Watson inquired who saw
the assault committed. Master Hugh told him it was done in Mr.
Gardner's ship-yard at midday, where there were a large company
of men at work. "As to that," he said, "the deed
was done, and there was no question as to who did it." His
answer was, he could do nothing in the case, unless some white
man would come forward and testify. He could issue no warrant
on my word. If I had been killed in the presence of a thousand
colored people, their testimony combined would have been insufficient
to have arrested one of the murderers. Master Hugh, for once,
was compelled to say this state of things was too bad. Of course,
it was impossible to get any white man to volunteer his testimony
in my behalf, and against the white young men. Even those who
may have sympathized with me were not prepared to do this. It
required a degree of courage unknown to them to do so; for just
at that time, the slightest manifestation of humanity toward a
colored person was denounced as abolitionism, and that name subjected
its bearer to frightful liabilities. The watchwords of the bloody-minded
in that region, and in those days, were, "Damn the abolitionists!"
and "Damn the niggers!" There was nothing done, and
probably nothing would have been done if I had been killed. Such
was, and such remains, the state of things in the Christian city
of Baltimore.
Master Hugh, finding he could get no redress, refused to let me
go back again to Mr. Gardner. He kept me himself, and his wife
dressed my wound till I was again restored to health. He then
took me into the ship-yard of which he was foreman, in the employment
of Mr. Walter Price. There I was immediately set to calking, and
very soon learned the art of using my mallet and irons. In the
course of one year from the time I left Mr. Gardner's, I was able
to command the highest wages given to the most experienced calkers.
I was now of some importance to my master. I was bringing him
from six to seven dollars per week. I sometimes brought him nine
dollars per week: my wages were a dollar and a half a day. After
learning how to calk, I sought my own employment, made my own
contracts, and collected the money which I earned. My pathway
became much more smooth than before; my condition was now much
more comfortable. When I could get no calking to do, I did nothing.
During these leisure times, those old notions about freedom would
steal over me again. When in Mr. Gardner's employment, I was kept
in such a perpetual whirl of excitement, I could think of nothing,
scarcely, but my life; and in thinking of my life, I almost forgot
my liberty. I have observed this in my experience of slavery,--that
whenever my condition was improved, instead of its increasing
my contentment, it only increased my desire to be free, and set
me to thinking of plans to gain my freedom. I have found that,
to make a contented slave, it is necessary to make a thoughtless
one. It is necessary to darken his moral and mental vision, and,
as far as possible, to annihilate the power of reason. He must
be able to detect no inconsistencies in slavery; he must be made
to feel that slavery is right; and he can be brought to that only
when he ceases to be a man.
I was now getting, as I have said, one dollar and fifty cents
per day. I contracted for it; I earned it; it was paid to me;
it was rightfully my own; yet, upon each returning Saturday night,
I was compelled to deliver every cent of that money to Master
Hugh. And why? Not because he earned it,--not because he had any
hand in earning it,--not because I owed it to him,--nor because
he possessed the slightest shadow of a right to it; but solely
because he had the power to compel me to give it up. The right
of the grim-visaged pirate upon the high seas is exactly the same.
CHAPTER XI
I now come to that part of my life during which I planned, and
finally succeeded in making, my escape from slavery. But before
narrating any of the peculiar circumstances, I deem it proper
to make known my intention not to state all the facts connected
with the transaction. My reasons for pursuing this course may
be understood from the following: First, were I to give a minute
statement of all the facts, it is not only possible, but quite
probable, that others would thereby be involved in the most embarrassing
difficulties. Secondly, such a statement would most undoubtedly
induce greater vigilance on the part of slaveholders than has
existed heretofore among them; which would, of course, be the
means of guarding a door whereby some dear brother bondman might
escape his galling chains. I deeply regret the necessity that
impels me to suppress any thing of importance connected with my
experience in slavery. It would afford me great pleasure indeed,
as well as materially add to the interest of my narrative, were
I at liberty to gratify a curiosity, which I know exists in the
minds of many, by an accurate statement of all the facts pertaining
to my most fortunate escape. But I must deprive myself of this
pleasure, and the curious of the gratification which such a statement
would afford. I would allow myself to suffer under the greatest
imputations which evil-minded men might suggest, rather than exculpate
myself, and thereby run the hazard of closing the slightest avenue
by which a brother slave might clear himself of the chains and
fetters of slavery.
I have never approved of the very public manner in which some
of our western friends have conducted what they call the ~underground
railroad,~ but which I think, by their open declarations, has
been made most emphatically the ~upperground railroad.~ I honor
those good men and women for their noble daring, and applaud them
for willingly subjecting themselves to bloody persecution, by
openly avowing their participation in the escape of slaves. I,
however, can see very little good resulting from such a course,
either to themselves or the slaves escaping; while, upon the other
hand, I see and feel assured that those open declarations are
a positive evil to the slaves remaining, who are seeking to escape.
They do nothing towards enlightening the slave, whilst they do
much towards enlightening the master. They stimulate him to greater
watchfulness, and enhance his power to capture his slave. We owe
something to the slave south of the line as well as to those north
of it; and in aiding the latter on their way to freedom, we should
be careful to do nothing which would be likely to hinder the former
from escaping from slavery. I would keep the merciless slaveholder
profoundly ignorant of the means of flight adopted by the slave.
I would leave him to imagine himself surrounded by myriads of
invisible tormentors, ever ready to snatch from his infernal grasp
his trembling prey. Let him be left to feel his way in the dark;
let darkness commensurate with his crime hover over him; and let
him feel that at every step he takes, in pursuit of the flying
bondman, he is running the frightful risk of having his hot brains
dashed out by an invisible agency. Let us render the tyrant no
aid; let us not hold the light by which he can trace the footprints
of our flying brother. But enough of this. I will now proceed
to the statement of those facts, connected with my escape, for
which I am alone responsible, and for which no one can be made
to suffer but myself.
In the early part of the year 1838, I became quite restless. I
could see no reason why I should, at the end of each week, pour
the reward of my toil into the purse of my master. When I carried
to him my weekly wages, he would, after counting the money, look
me in the face with a robber-like fierceness, and ask, "Is
this all?" He was satisfied with nothing less than the last
cent. He would, however, when I made him six dollars, sometimes
give me six cents, to encourage me. It had the opposite effect.
I regarded it as a sort of admission of my right to the whole.
The fact that he gave me any part of my wages was proof, to my
mind, that he believed me entitled to the whole of them. I always
felt worse for having received any thing; for I feared that the
giving me a few cents would ease his conscience, and make him
feel himself to be a pretty honorable sort of robber. My discontent
grew upon me. I was ever on the look-out for means of escape;
and, finding no direct means, I determined to try to hire my time,
with a view of getting money with which to make my escape. In
the spring of 1838, when Master Thomas came to Baltimore to purchase
his spring goods, I got an opportunity, and applied to him to
allow me to hire my time. He unhesitatingly refused my request,
and told me this was another stratagem by which to escape. He
told me I could go nowhere but that he could get me; and that,
in the event of my running away, he should spare no pains in his
efforts to catch me. He exhorted me to content myself, and be
obedient. He told me, if I would be happy, I must lay out no plans
for the future. He said, if I behaved myself properly, he would
take care of me. Indeed, he advised me to complete thoughtlessness
of the future, and taught me to depend solely upon him for happiness.
He seemed to see fully the pressing necessity of setting aside
my intellectual nature, in order to contentment in slavery. But
in spite of him, and even in spite of myself, I continued to think,
and to think about the injustice of my enslavement, and the means
of escape.
About two months after this, I applied to Master Hugh for the
privilege of hiring my time. He was not acquainted with the fact
that I had applied to Master Thomas, and had been refused. He
too, at first, seemed disposed to refuse; but, after some reflection,
he granted me the privilege, and proposed the following terms:
I was to be allowed all my time, make all contracts with those
for whom I worked, and find my own employment; and, in return
for this liberty, I was to pay him three dollars at the end of
each week; find myself in calking tools, and in board and clothing.
My board was two dollars and a half per week. This, with the wear
and tear of clothing and calking tools, made my regular expenses
about six dollars per week. This amount I was compelled to make
up, or relinquish the privilege of hiring my time. Rain or shine,
work or no work, at the end of each week the money must be forthcoming,
or I must give up my privilege. This arrangement, it will be perceived,
was decidedly in my master's favor. It relieved him of all need
of looking after me. His money was sure. He received all the benefits
of slaveholding without its evils; while I endured all the evils
of a slave, and suffered all the care and anxiety of a freeman.
I found it a hard bargain. But, hard as it was, I thought it better
than the old mode of getting along. It was a step towards freedom
to be allowed to bear the responsibilities of a freeman, and I
was determined to hold on upon it. I bent myself to the work of
making money. I was ready to work at night as well as day, and
by the most untiring perseverance and industry, I made enough
to meet my expenses, and lay up a little money every week. I went
on thus from May till August. Master Hugh then refused to allow
me to hire my time longer. The ground for his refusal was a failure
on my part, one Saturday night, to pay him for my week's time.
This failure was occasioned by my attending a camp meeting about
ten miles from Baltimore. During the week, I had entered into
an engagement with a number of young friends to start from Baltimore
to the camp ground early Saturday evening; and being detained
by my employer, I was unable to get down to Master Hugh's without
disappointing the company. I knew that Master Hugh was in no special
need of the money that night. I therefore decided to go to camp
meeting, and upon my return pay him the three dollars. I staid
at the camp meeting one day longer than I intended when I left.
But as soon as I returned, I called upon him to pay him what he
considered his due. I found him very angry; he could scarce restrain
his wrath. He said he had a great mind to give me a severe whipping.
He wished to know how I dared go out of the city without asking
his permission. I told him I hired my time and while I paid him
the price which he asked for it, I did not know that I was bound
to ask him when and where I should go. This reply troubled him;
and, after reflecting a few moments, he turned to me, and said
I should hire my time no longer; that the next thing he should
know of, I would be running away. Upon the same plea, he told
me to bring my tools and clothing home forthwith. I did so; but
instead of seeking work, as I had been accustomed to do previously
to hiring my time, I spent the whole week without the performance
of a single stroke of work. I did this in retaliation. Saturday
night, he called upon me as usual for my week's wages. I told
him I had no wages; I had done no work that week. Here we were
upon the point of coming to blows. He raved, and swore his determination
to get hold of me. I did not allow myself a single word; but was
resolved, if he laid the weight of his hand upon me, it should
be blow for blow. He did not strike me, but told me that he would
find me in constant employment in future. I thought the matter
over during the next day, Sunday, and finally resolved upon the
third day of September, as the day upon which I would make a second attempt to secure my freedom. I now had three weeks during which
to prepare for my journey. Early on Monday morning, before Master
Hugh had time to make any engagement for me, I went out and got
employment of Mr. Butler, at his ship-yard near the drawbridge,
upon what is called the City Block, thus making it unnecessary
for him to seek employment for me. At the end of the week, I brought
him between eight and nine dollars. He seemed very well pleased,
and asked why I did not do the same the week before. He little
knew what my plans were. My object in working steadily was to
remove any suspicion he might entertain of my intent to run away;
and in this I succeeded admirably. I suppose he thought I was
never better satisfied with my condition than at the very time
during which I was planning my escape. The second week passed,
and again I carried him my full wages; and so well pleased was
he, that he gave me twentyfive cents, (quite a large sum for a
slaveholder to give a slave,) and bade me to make a good use of
it. I told him I would.
Things went on without very smoothly indeed, but within there
was trouble. It is impossible for me to describe my feelings as
the time of my contemplated start drew near. I had a number of
warmhearted friends in Baltimore,--friends that I loved almost
as I did my life,--and the thought of being separated from them
forever was painful beyond expression. It is my opinion that thousands
would escape from slavery, who now remain, but for the strong
cords of affection that bind them to their friends. The thought
of leaving my friends was decidedly the most painful thought with
which I had to contend. The love of them was my tender point,
and shook my decision more than all things else. Besides the pain
of separation, the dread and apprehension of a failure exceeded
what I had experienced at my first attempt. The appalling defeat
I then sustained returned to torment me. I felt assured that,
if I failed in this attempt, my case would be a hopeless one--it
would seal my fate as a slave forever. I could not hope to get
off with any thing less than the severest punishment, and being
placed beyond the means of escape. It required no very vivid imagination
to depict the most frightful scenes through which I should have
to pass, in case I failed. The wretchedness of slavery, and the
blessedness of freedom, were perpetually before me. It was life
and death with me. But I remained firm, and, according to my resolution,
on the third day of September, 1838, I left my chains, and succeeded
in reaching New York without the slightest interruption of any
kind. How I did so,--what means I adopted,--what direction I travelled,
and by what mode of conveyance,--I must leave unexplained, for
the reasons before mentioned.
I have been frequently asked how I felt when I found myself in
a free State. I have never been able to answer the question with
any satisfaction to myself. It was a moment of the highest excitement
I ever experienced. I suppose I felt as one may imagine the unarmed
mariner to feel when he is rescued by a friendly man-of-war from
the pursuit of a pirate. In writing to a dear friend, immediately
after my arrival at New York, I said I felt like one who had escaped
a den of hungry lions. This state of mind, however, very soon
subsided; and I was again seized with a feeling of great insecurity
and loneliness. I was yet liable to be taken back, and subjected
to all the tortures of slavery. This in itself was enough to damp
the ardor of my enthusiasm. But the loneliness overcame me. There
I was in the midst of thousands, and yet a perfect stranger; without
home and without friends, in the midst of thousands of my own
brethren--children of a common Father, and yet I dared not to
unfold to any one of them my sad condition. I was afraid to speak
to any one for fear of speaking to the wrong one, and thereby
falling into the hands of money-loving kidnappers, whose business
it was to lie in wait for the panting fugitive, as the ferocious
beasts of the forest lie in wait for their prey. The motto which
I adopted when I started from slavery was this--"Trust no
man!" I saw in every white man an enemy, and in almost every
colored man cause for distrust. It was a most painful situation;
and, to understand it, one must needs experience it, or imagine
himself in similar circumstances. Let him be a fugitive slave
in a strange land--a land given up to be the huntingground for
slaveholders--whose inhabitants are legalized kidnappers--where
he is every moment subjected to the terrible liability of being
seized upon by his fellowmen, as the hideous crocodile seizes
upon his prey!--I say, let him place himself in my situation--without
home or friends--without money or credit--wanting shelter, and
no one to give it-wanting bread, and no money to buy it,--and
at the same time let him feel that he is pursued by merciless
men-hunters, and in total darkness as to what to do, where to
go, or where to stay,--perfectly helpless both as to the means
of defence and means of escape,--in the midst of plenty, yet suffering
the terrible gnawings of hunger,--in the midst of houses, yet
having no home,--among fellow-men, yet feeling as if in the midst
of wild beasts, whose greediness to swallow up the trembling and
half-famished fugitive is only equalled by that with which the
monsters of the deep swallow up the helpless fish upon which they
subsist,--I say, let him be placed in this most trying situation,--the
situation in which I was placed, --then, and not till then, will
he fully appreciate the hardships of, and know how to sympathize
with, the toil-worn and whip-scarred fugitive slave.
Thank Heaven, I remained but a short time in this distressed situation.
I was relieved from it by the humane hand of Mr. DAVID RUGGLES,
whose vigilance, kindness, and perseverance, I shall never forget.
I am glad of an opportunity to express, as far as words can, the
love and gratitude I bear him. Mr. Ruggles is now afflicted with
blindness, and is himself in need of the same kind offices which
he was once so forward in the performance of toward others. I
had been in New York but a few days, when Mr. Ruggles sought me
out, and very kindly took me to his boarding-house at the corner
of Church and Lespenard Streets. Mr. Ruggles was then very deeply
engaged in the memorable ~Darg~ case, as well as attending to
a number of other fugitive slaves, devising ways and means for
their successful escape; and, though watched and hemmed in on
almost every side, he seemed to be more than a match for his enemies.
Very soon after I went to Mr. Ruggles, he wished to know of me
where I wanted to go; as he deemed it unsafe for me to remain
in New York. I told him I was a calker, and should like to go
where I could get work. I thought of going to Canada; but he decided
against it, and in favor of my going to New Bedford, thinking
I should be able to get work there at my trade. At this time,
Anna,* my intended wife, came on; for I wrote to her immediately
after my arrival at New York, (notwithstanding my homeless, houseless,
and helpless condition,) informing her of my successful flight,
and wishing her to come on forthwith. In a few days after her
arrival, Mr. Ruggles called in the Rev. J. W. C. Pennington, who,
in the presence of Mr. Ruggles, Mrs. Michaels, and two or three
others, performed the marriage ceremony, and gave us a certificate,
of which the following is an exact copy:--
"This may certify, that I joined together in holy matrimony
Frederick Johnson+ and Anna Murray, as man and wife, in the presence
of Mr. David Ruggles and Mrs. Michaels.
"JAMES W. C. PENNINGTON
"NEW YORK, SEPT. 15, 1838"
Upon receiving this certificate, and a five-dollar bill from Mr.
Ruggles, I shouldered one part of our baggage, and Anna took up
the other, and we set out forthwith to take passage on board of
the steamboat John W. Richmond for Newport, on our way to New
Bedford. Mr. Ruggles gave me a letter to a Mr. Shaw in Newport,
and told me, in case my money did not serve me to New Bedford,
to stop in Newport and obtain further assistance; but upon our
*She was free.
+I had changed my name from Frederick BAILEY to that of JOHNSON.
arrival at Newport, we were so anxious to get to a place of safety,
that, notwithstanding we lacked the necessary money to pay our
fare, we decided to take seats in the stage, and promise to pay
when we got to New Bedford. We were encouraged to do this by two
excellent gentlemen, residents of New Bedford, whose names I afterward
ascertained to be Joseph Ricketson and William C. Taber. They
seemed at once to understand our circumstances, and gave us such
assurance of their friendliness as put us fully at ease in their
presence. It was good indeed to meet with such friends, at such
a time. Upon reaching New Bedford, we were directed to the house
of Mr. Nathan Johnson, by whom we were kindly received, and hospitably
provided for. Both Mr. and Mrs. Johnson took a deep and lively
interest in our welfare. They proved themselves quite worthy of
the name of abolitionists. When the stage-driver found us unable
to pay our fare, he held on upon our baggage as security for the
debt. I had but to mention the fact to Mr. Johnson, and he forthwith
advanced the money.
We now began to feel a degree of safety, and to prepare ourselves
for the duties and responsibilities of a life of freedom. On the
morning after our arrival at New Bedford, while at the breakfast-table,
the question arose as to what name I should be called by. The
name given me by my mother was, "Frederick Augustus Washington
Bailey." I, however, had dispensed with the two middle names
long before I left Maryland so that I was generally known by the
name of "Frederick Bailey." I started from Baltimore
bearing the name of "Stanley." When I got to New York,
I again changed my name to "Frederick Johnson," and
thought that would be the last change. But when I got to New Bedford,
I found it necessary again to change my name. The reason of this
necessity was, that there were so many Johnsons in New Bedford,
it was already quite difficult to distinguish between them. I
gave Mr. Johnson the privilege of choosing me a name, but told
him he must not take from me the name of "Frederick."
I must hold on to that, to preserve a sense of my identity. Mr.
Johnson had just been reading the "Lady of the Lake,"
and at once suggested that my name be "Douglass." From
that time until now I have been called "Frederick Douglass;"
and as I am more widely known by that name than by either of the
others, I shall continue to use it as my own.
I was quite disappointed at the general appearance of things in
New Bedford. The impression which I had received respecting the
character and condition of the people of the north, I found to
be singularly erroneous. I had very strangely supposed, while
in slavery, that few of the comforts, and scarcely any of the
luxuries, of life were enjoyed at the north, compared with what
were enjoyed by the slaveholders of the south. I probably came
to this conclusion from the fact that northern people owned no
slaves. I supposed that they were about upon a level with the
non-slaveholding population of the south. I knew ~they~ were exceedingly
poor, and I had been accustomed to regard their poverty as the
necessary consequence of their being non-slaveholders. I had somehow
imbibed the opinion that, in the absence of slaves, there could
be no wealth, and very little refinement. And upon coming to the
north, I expected to meet with a rough, hard-handed, and uncultivated
population, living in the most Spartanlike simplicity, knowing
nothing of the ease, luxury, pomp, and grandeur of southern slaveholders.
Such being my conjectures, any one acquainted with the appearance
of New Bedford may very readily infer how palpably I must have
seen my mistake.
In the afternoon of the day when I reached New Bedford, I visited
the wharves, to take a view of the shipping. Here I found myself
surrounded with the strongest proofs of wealth. Lying at the wharves,
and riding in the stream, I saw many ships of the finest model,
in the best order, and of the largest size. Upon the right and
left, I was walled in by granite warehouses of the widest dimensions,
stowed to their utmost capacity with the necessaries and comforts
of life. Added to this, almost every body seemed to be at work,
but noiselessly so, compared with what I had been accustomed to
in Baltimore. There were no loud songs heard from those engaged
in loading and unloading ships. I heard no deep oaths or horrid
curses on the laborer. I saw no whipping of men; but all seemed
to go smoothly on. Every man appeared to understand his work,
and went at it with a sober, yet cheerful earnestness, which betokened
the deep interest which he felt in what he was doing, as well
as a sense of his own dignity as a man. To me this looked exceedingly
strange. From the wharves I strolled around and over the town,
gazing with wonder and admiration at the splendid churches, beautiful
dwellings, and finely-cultivated gardens; evincing an amount of
wealth, comfort, taste, and refinement, such as I had never seen
in any part of slaveholding Maryland.
Every thing looked clean, new, and beautiful. I saw few or no
dilapidated houses, with povertystricken inmates; no half-naked
children and barefooted women, such as I had been accustomed to
see in Hillsborough, Easton, St. Michael's, and Baltimore. The
people looked more able, stronger, healthier, and happier, than
those of Maryland. I was for once made glad by a view of extreme
wealth, without being saddened by seeing extreme poverty. But
the most astonishing as well as the most interesting thing to
me was the condition of the colored people, a great many of whom,
like myself, had escaped thither as a refuge from the hunters
of men. I found many, who had not been seven years out of their
chains, living in finer houses, and evidently enjoying more of
the comforts of life, than the average of slaveholders in Maryland.
I will venture to assert, that my friend Mr. Nathan Johnson (of
whom I can say with a grateful heart, "I was hungry, and
he gave me meat; I was thirsty, and he gave me drink; I was a
stranger, and he took me in") lived in a neater house; dined
at a better table; took, paid for, and read, more newspapers;
better understood the moral, religious, and political character
of the nation,--than nine tenths of the slaveholders in Talbot
county Maryland. Yet Mr. Johnson was a working man. His hands
were hardened by toil, and not his alone, but those also of Mrs.
Johnson. I found the colored people much more spirited than I
had supposed they would be. I found among them a determination
to protect each other from the blood-thirsty kidnapper, at all
hazards. Soon after my arrival, I was told of a circumstance which
illustrated their spirit. A colored man and a fugitive slave were
on unfriendly terms. The former was heard to threaten the latter
with informing his master of his whereabouts. Straightway a meeting
was called among the colored people, under the stereotyped notice,
"Business of importance!" The betrayer was invited to
attend. The people came at the appointed hour, and organized the
meeting by appointing a very religious old gentleman as president,
who, I believe, made a prayer, after which he addressed the meeting
as follows: "~Friends, we have got him here, and I would
recommend that you young men just take him outside the door, and
kill him!~" With this, a number of them bolted at him; but
they were intercepted by some more timid than themselves, and
the betrayer escaped their vengeance, and has not been seen in
New Bedford since. I believe there have been no more such threats,
and should there be hereafter, I doubt not that death would be
the consequence.
I found employment, the third day after my arrival, in stowing
a sloop with a load of oil. It was new, dirty, and hard work for
me; but I went at it with a glad heart and a willing hand. I was
now my own master. It was a happy moment, the rapture of which
can be understood only by those who have been slaves. It was the
first work, the reward of which was to be entirely my own. There
was no Master Hugh standing ready, the moment I earned the money,
to rob me of it. I worked that day with a pleasure I had never
before experienced. I was at work for myself and newly-married
wife. It was to me the starting-point of a new existence. When
I got through with that job, I went in pursuit of a job of calking;
but such was the strength of prejudice against color, among the
white calkers, that they refused to work with me, and of course
I could get no employment.* Finding my trade of no immediate benefit,
I threw off my calking habiliments, and prepared myself to do
any kind of work I could get to do. Mr. Johnson kindly let me
have his wood-horse and saw, and I very soon found myself a plenty
of work. There was no work too hard--none too dirty. I was ready
to saw wood, shovel coal, carry wood, sweep the chimney, or roll
oil casks,--all of which I
* I am told that colored persons can now get employment at calking
in New Bedford--a result of anti-slavery effort. did for nearly
three years in New Bedford, before I became known to the anti-slavery
world.
In about four months after I went to New Bedford, there came a
young man to me, and inquired if I did not wish to take the "Liberator."
I told him I did; but, just having made my escape from slavery,
I remarked that I was unable to pay for it then. I, however, finally
became a subscriber to it. The paper came, and I read it from
week to week with such feelings as it would be quite idle for
me to attempt to describe. The paper became my meat and my drink.
My soul was set all on fire. Its sympathy for my brethren in bonds--its
scathing denunciations of slaveholders--its faithful exposures
of slavery--and its powerful attacks upon the upholders of the
institution--sent a thrill of joy through my soul, such as I had
never felt before!
I had not long been a reader of the "Liberator," before
I got a pretty correct idea of the principles, measures and spirit
of the anti-slavery reform. I took right hold of the cause. I
could do but little; but what I could, I did with a joyful heart,
and never felt happier than when in an anti-slavery meeting. I
seldom had much to say at the meetings, because what I wanted
to say was said so much better by others. But, while attending
an anti-slavery convention at Nantucket, on the 11th of August,
1841, I felt strongly moved to speak, and was at the same time
much urged to do so by Mr. William C. Coffin, a gentleman who
had heard me speak in the colored people's meeting at New Bedford.
It was a severe cross, and I took it up reluctantly. The truth
was, I felt myself a slave, and the idea of speaking to white
people weighed me down. I spoke but a few moments, when I felt
a degree of freedom, and said what I desired with considerable
ease. From that time until now, I have been engaged in pleading
the cause of my brethren--with what success, and with what devotion,
I leave those acquainted with my labors to decide.
APPENDIX
I find, since reading over the foregoing Narrative, that I have,
in several instances, spoken in such a tone and manner, respecting
religion, as may possibly lead those unacquainted with my religious
views to suppose me an opponent of all religion. To remove the
liability of such misapprehension, I deem it proper to append
the following brief explanation. What I have said respecting and
against religion, I mean strictly to apply to the ~slaveholding
religion~ of this land, and with no possible reference to Christianity
proper; for, between the Christianity of this land, and the Christianity
of Christ, I recognize the widest possible difference--so wide,
that to receive the one as good, pure, and holy, is of necessity
to reject the other as bad, corrupt, and wicked. To be the friend
of the one, is of necessity to be the enemy of the other. I love
the pure, peaceable, and impartial Christianity of Christ: I therefore
hate the corrupt, slaveholding, women-whipping, cradle-plundering,
partial and hypocritical Christianity of this land. Indeed, I
can see no reason, but the most deceitful one, for calling the
religion of this land Christianity. I look upon it as the climax
of all misnomers, the boldest of all frauds, and the grossest
of all libels. Never was there a clearer case of "stealing
the livery of the court of heaven to serve the devil in."
I am filled with unutterable loathing when I contemplate the religious
pomp and show, together with the horrible inconsistencies, which
every where surround me. We have men-stealers for ministers, womenwhippers
for missionaries, and cradle-plunderers for church members. The
man who wields the bloodclotted cowskin during the week fills
the pulpit on Sunday, and claims to be a minister of the meek
and lowly Jesus. The man who robs me of my earnings at the end
of each week meets me as a class-leader on Sunday morning, to
show me the way of life, and the path of salvation. He who sells
my sister, for purposes of prostitution, stands forth as the pious
advocate of purity. He who proclaims it a religious duty to read
the Bible denies me the right of learning to read the name of
the God who made me. He who is the religious advocate of marriage
robs whole millions of its sacred influence, and leaves them to
the ravages of wholesale pollution. The warm defender of the sacredness
of the family relation is the same that scatters whole families,--sundering
husbands and wives, parents and children, sisters and brothers,--leaving
the hut vacant, and the hearth desolate. We see the thief preaching
against theft, and the adulterer against adultery. We have men
sold to build churches, women sold to support the gospel, and
babes sold to purchase Bibles for the POOR HEATHEN! ALL FOR THE
GLORY OF GOD AND THE GOOD OF SOULS! The slave auctioneer's bell
and the church-going bell chime in with each other, and the bitter
cries of the heart-broken slave are drowned in the religious shouts
of his pious master. Revivals of religion and revivals in the
slave-trade go hand in hand together. The slave prison and the
church stand near each other. The clanking of fetters and the
rattling of chains in the prison, and the pious psalm and solemn
prayer in the church, may be heard at the same time. The dealers
in the bodies and souls of men erect their stand in the presence
of the pulpit, and they mutually help each other. The dealer gives
his blood-stained gold to support the pulpit, and the pulpit,
in return, covers his infernal business with the garb of Christianity.
Here we have religion and robbery the allies of each other --devils
dressed in angels' robes, and hell presenting the semblance of
paradise.
"Just God! and these are they,Who minister at thine altar,
God of right! Men who their hands, with prayer and blessing, layOn
Israel's ark of light.
"What! preach, and kidnap men?Give thanks, and rob thy own
afflicted poor? Talk of thy glorious liberty, and thenBolt hard
the captive's door?
"What! servants of thy ownMerciful Son, who came to seek
and save The homeless and the outcast, fettering downThe tasked
and plundered slave!
"Pilate and Herod friends!Chief priests and rulers, as of
old, combine! Just God and holy! is that church which lendsStrength
to the spoiler thine?"
The Christianity of America is a Christianity, of whose votaries
it may be as truly said, as it was of the ancient scribes and
Pharisees, "They bind heavy burdens, and grievous to be borne,
and lay them on men's shoulders, but they themselves will not
move them with one of their fingers. All their works they do for
to be seen of men.--They love the uppermost rooms at feasts, and
the chief seats in the synagogues, . . . . . . and to be called
of men, Rabbi, Rabbi.--But woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees,
hypocrites! for ye shut up the kingdom of heaven against men;
for ye neither go in yourselves, neither suffer ye them that are
entering to go in. Ye devour widows' houses, and for a pretence
make long prayers; therefore ye shall receive the greater damnation.
Ye compass sea and land to make one proselyte, and when he is
made, ye make him twofold more the child of hell than yourselves.--Woe
unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye pay tithe
of mint, and anise, and cumin, and have omitted the weightier
matters of the law, judgment, mercy, and faith; these ought ye
to have done, and not to leave the other undone. Ye blind guides!
which strain at a gnat, and swallow a camel. Woe unto you, scribes
and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye make clean the outside of the
cup and of the platter; but within, they are full of extortion
and excess.-Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for
ye are like unto whited sepulchres, which indeed appear beautiful
outward, but are within full of dead men's bones, and of all uncleanness.
Even so ye also outwardly appear righteous unto men, but within
ye are full of hypocrisy and iniquity."
Dark and terrible as is this picture, I hold it to be strictly
true of the overwhelming mass of professed Christians in America.
They strain at a gnat, and swallow a camel. Could any thing be
more true of our churches? They would be shocked at the proposition
of fellowshipping a SHEEP-stealer; and at the same time they hug
to their communion a MANstealer, and brand me with being an infidel,
if I find fault with them for it. They attend with Pharisaical
strictness to the outward forms of religion, and at the same time
neglect the weightier matters of the law, judgment, mercy, and
faith. They are always ready to sacrifice, but seldom to show
mercy. They are they who are represented as professing to love
God whom they have not seen, whilst they hate their brother whom
they have seen. They love the heathen on the other side of the
globe. They can pray for him, pay money to have the Bible put
into his hand, and missionaries to instruct him; while they despise
and totally neglect the heathen at their own doors.
Such is, very briefly, my view of the religion of this land; and
to avoid any misunderstanding, growing out of the use of general
terms, I mean by the religion of this land, that which is revealed
in the words, deeds, and actions, of those bodies, north and south,
calling themselves Christian churches, and yet in union with slaveholders.
It is against religion, as presented by these bodies, that I have
felt it my duty to testify.
I conclude these remarks by copying the following portrait of
the religion of the south, (which is, by communion and fellowship,
the religion of the north,) which I soberly affirm is "true
to the life," and without caricature or the slightest exaggeration.
It is said to have been drawn, several years before the present
anti-slavery agitation began, by a northern Methodist preacher,
who, while residing at the south, had an opportunity to see slaveholding
morals, manners, and piety, with his own eyes. "Shall I not
visit for these things? saith the Lord. Shall not my soul be avenged
on such a nation as this?"
A PARODY
"Come, saints and sinners, hear me tell How pious priests
whip Jack and Nell, And women buy and children sell, And preach
all sinners down to hell, And sing of heavenly union. "They'll
bleat and baa, dona like goats, Gorge down black sheep, and strain
at motes, Array their backs in fine black coats, Then seize their
negroes by their throats, And choke, for heavenly union.
"They'll church you if you sip a dram, And damn you if you
steal a lamb; Yet rob old Tony, Doll, and Sam, Of human rights,
and bread and ham; Kidnapper's heavenly union.
"They'll loudly talk of Christ's reward, And bind his image
with a cord, And scold, and swing the lash abhorred, And sell
their brother in the Lord To handcuffed heavenly union.
"They'll read and sing a sacred song, And make a prayer both
loud and long, And teach the right and do the wrong, Hailing the
brother, sister throng, With words of heavenly union.
"We wonder how such saints can sing, Or praise the Lord upon
the wing, Who roar, and scold, and whip, and sting, And to their
slaves and mammon cling, In guilty conscience union.
"They'll raise tobacco, corn, and rye, And drive, and thieve,
and cheat, and lie, And lay up treasures in the sky, By making
switch and cowskin fly, In hope of heavenly union. "They'll
crack old Tony on the skull, And preach and roar like Bashan bull,
Or braying ass, of mischief full, Then seize old Jacob by the
wool, And pull for heavenly union.
"A roaring, ranting, sleek man-thief, Who lived on mutton,
veal, and beef, Yet never would afford relief To needy, sable
sons of grief, Was big with heavenly union.
"'Love not the world,' the preacher said, And winked his
eye, and shook his head; He seized on Tom, and Dick, and Ned,
Cut short their meat, and clothes, and bread, Yet still loved
heavenly union.
"Another preacher whining spoke Of One whose heart for sinners
broke: He tied old Nanny to an oak, And drew the blood at every
stroke, And prayed for heavenly union.
"Two others oped their iron jaws, And waved their children-stealing
paws; There sat their children in gewgaws; By stinting negroes'
backs and maws, They kept up heavenly union.
"All good from Jack another takes, And entertains their flirts
and rakes, Who dress as sleek as glossy snakes, And cram their
mouths with sweetened cakes; And this goes down for union."
Sincerely and earnestly hoping that this little book may do something
toward throwing light on the American slave system, and hastening
the glad day of deliverance to the millions of my brethren in
bonds--faithfully relying upon the power of truth, love, and justice,
for success in my humble efforts --and solemnly pledging my self
anew to the sacred cause,--I subscribe myself,
FREDERICK DOUGLASS LYNN, ~Mass., April~ 28, 1845.
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